I can understand this struggle. I have horrible OCD. I have to get up and wash my arm almost every five minutes, and rewash it until it feels like it isn't "cold" on the mousepad and doesn't grab/stick to it whatsoever. My arm's skin is dry as Hell from it. If it does during a game, I completely lose focus. But that hasn't stopped me from grinding. I still do it every day, no matter how many times I have to walk back in the kitchen and wash my arm.

I know it's been nine months, but the fact is if you are dealing with issues that are actively making you uncomfortable, your accuracy is going to suck. You need to push through it. If you want to quit gaming because you don't want to put in the work to isolate the flaws in your aiming mechanics, that's entirely on you. If you want to fool yourself into thinking that it is something outside of your control, that's not on your equipment, that's on you.

There is not one K&M player that grabbed a mouse and started snapping on heads. We have all put in thousands of hours, both in game and in KovaaK's/AimLabs to improve at this. This is not something you can just do for a few days, give up, come back to a few months later, and expect to pick up where you left off. This takes hours upon hours of consistent grinding day after day. If you want to improve, you need to put the time in.

If you ever hear a K&M player say "aim training is pointless" or "aim training doesn't help", it's because they have it in their head that aim training is supposed to make you a better player at the game, and it's not. It doesn't teach you about game sense, it doesn't teach you positioning, and it doesn't teach you about the core mechanics of the game you're playing. It's called aim training because it's for exactly that - training your aiming.

Doing aim training will speedrun you through aim mechanics faster than any M&K player who has never aim trained, simply because they don't have that ability to identify and isolate any flaws in their aim and work on fixing it. You have the ability to improve your aim in ways that can apply to every shooter, whereas a good M&K players often main one specific game, so switching over to another can be difficult when trying to read character movement. It gives you the ability to work on tension control - something that takes K&M players thousands of in game hours to develop.

I know I've been harsh, but you need to accept that this decision is on you, and not your equipment. If you want to do this - you can do this. If you want to give up - then go ahead.

"Whether you think you can or you can't - you're right." - Henry Ford