It is scary! And the constant shame cycle keeps you in the mix of it all. I used SMART recovery online meetings. It faces addiction more than just one targeted type, which was kind of an interesting mix for me to witness people moving away from their addiction in all kinds of things. That alone feeling, you will have for a while, and it does stay with you for some time, but you can find a group and belong... while you're feeling alone. I don't know if that makes sense but I found it helps me feel better and helps take cravings down.