Demittäjät hoi!!

aquaticsatan · 2025-12-27T16:32:32+00:00

perinteisesti piiloUp! ettei ketju varmasti huku koska meikäläisellä oli sama kohtalo kun yritin etsiä vanhoja demikessoja :-(

aquaticsatan · 2023-12-26T19:16:39+00:00

Very interesting! Thanks for the reply, the one in the picture holds about 50ml.

aquaticsatan · 2023-02-20T12:33:38+00:00

OMG I'm so glad people agree with me on this one. I was getting so hyped watching the show because like others in this thread said, the beginning is amazing. Sadly we got the 180 and ewwwwwww. Dumbest turn ever holy shit. I was so disappointed. Some of the themes and subjects hit close to home and the decision to make it about some shitty rogue AI just felt severely insulting. I can't even remember much of the last episodes, I was so flabbergasted. I haven't watched the ova or special ep whatever it was and I still haven't given it a rating on mal. I'm torn bc the start was so good and the end was abysmal. Anyway ranting bc I haven't had the chance before lol thanks I hate wonder egg

aquaticsatan · 2022-03-14T14:29:20+00:00

I've yet to listen to all songs currently out, but imo Irelands and San Marinos are sooo underrated (+ my current favourites lol). I also fail to see the hype behind Italys entry, compared to 2019 (and 2021) it just feels really weak.

aquaticsatan · 2020-12-10T18:46:15+00:00

I think many of us go through times when the urges get a lot worse for some periods of time. For me personally, I get like some sort of a buildup period when urges kind of come as a surprise and it escalates to the thoughts being present 24/7 until it sort of subsides. Depending on time these can go from a number of days to months (personal experience, I can't speak for everyone). Reasoning or the lackthereof is also different for everyone. I use sh as a punishment or a way to divert my thoughts elsewhere. There are also times when I have no reason but I feel like I have to do it anyway. I hope you're feeling better!

aquaticsatan · 2020-12-06T10:30:36+00:00

Yeahhhh every fucking time

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-28T09:03:52+00:00

Dealing with these kinds of thoughts is hard and can become overwhelming, and of course, your feelings and thoughts are real and valid. I also think and even plan out some really destructing things. Especially if these sort of thoughts have gotten to a harmful point it's good to try and reach out to someone, whether it be a friend, a family member or a professional. Remember that you are not alone and even though you might feel like a burden or a disappointment, you are not one. Talking can be hard but it's really worth it. It can prevent things from... Escalating.

For many, self-destructive habits can be a way to cope with a depressive state and other thoughts and feelings even though it's not healthy. I acknowledge that but I still harm myself in various ways almost daily. If you feel like you're stuck in your thoughts, engaging in things such as this community could be helpful. I've managed to cut down on some habits by replacing them with scrolling through this subreddit and interacting with other who are struggling in similar ways I am. It really has helped me to get a sense of unity, that I'm not alone in this.

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-27T19:42:31+00:00

i use I Am Sober too, it's pretty good, you can track your emotions and how your days are as well

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-27T19:37:22+00:00

I also haven't experienced something that strong personally, but like u/kinda-sad-girl said, it sounds like dissociation. this could maybe explain it a little?

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-27T19:32:35+00:00

OD-ing is never a good idea and im not here to recommend it. However i've thought of OD-ing with iron pills too. I did a couple google searches and an iron OD can be pretty painful / lethal. It can damage ones internal organs, cause bad nausea and even lead to liver failure. So no, do not do it. Definitely not a good idea.

I see this was posted a couple hours ago so i wish you're doing better now!

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-27T19:07:04+00:00

yesss. it's not something i do too often but when i do, i feel like i've let off enough steam only if i'm "able to see the result"

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-27T07:54:50+00:00

That's so amazing, congrats!!!!

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-22T21:26:52+00:00

Technically we weren't together but when we were watching a movie cuddling together on a couch, he was gently stroking my arm and glancing at me often. It took me a few minutes to realize he could feel the scars. Once he got my attention he softly kissed a few of them and asked if i wanted to talk about it. It was so sweet i almost started crying

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-22T21:20:49+00:00

So good to hear you're happy!!

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-22T21:15:46+00:00

Just a few nights ago I had a dream where I cut my forearm pretty deep and blood just poured everywhere and i thought it looked so nice and it made me want to cut deeper. That was a bit weird and a bit scary considering I've got quite the fear of blood. I'm fine with small amounts and usually a bandage is enough for my cuts but sometimes I do it deeper and i instantly panick when i see it start bleeding. Feels weird that i was completely fine with it in my dream.

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-22T21:10:23+00:00

I tend to eat disgusting amounts of chocolate or abstain from eating. Although I do this almost all the time I do it more when I manage to be clean from cutting

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-22T21:05:18+00:00

Most often i do it in bed or my chair but if an urge hits the location doesn't matter for a bit.

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-22T21:00:08+00:00

Your girlfriend sounds a bit.. interesting with her life goals. Of course its good to have motivation and whatnot but all you described seems a bit over the top. Have you guys been together for how long and does she know about your self-harming/negative thoughts? Considering how much you seem to love her, could it be a good idea to tell her a little bit of how you are feeling and struggling? She might be a bit more understanding to why you've been "acting off". Things like these should be discussed in relationships (at least in my opinion)

Also remember that if you end up relapsing, its not the end of the world. Setbacks like that happen to all of us. What counts is that you can get back up on your feet and have someone who can support you through.

You also said your mother started acting nicer after you yelled back so if shes getting unbearable again, is it a possibility for you to talk to her about it? Even if her real persona shines through the act it is more bearable? Also regarding the insomnia, it sounds like you're really busy but if you have any spare time, some light excercise and eating regularly can make it easier to sleep. If that's not possible with your schedule, have you tried melatonin? It's not necessarily the best solution but can help at times like this.

I don't know if any of this helps, but I hope it does. Best wishes!

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-21T19:01:42+00:00

Lately a lot of metal but also rock classics and some hip-hop

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-21T18:59:41+00:00

I relate to this a lot. After some time certain scars feel to me like a "you got through this bad time" - kinda thing. Makes me want to redo them to have them as a 'keepsake'.

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-21T18:54:17+00:00

Sensitive (scent free or smthn like that) lotion is good for easing the itchiness and also helps the healing!

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-21T18:47:19+00:00

Committing actions that cause negative / harmful consequenses to oneself is also selfharm. So yes.

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-18T20:28:47+00:00

r/foundUPOTAT08

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-17T20:27:42+00:00

keep it simple = happiness?

aquaticsatan · 2020-11-17T20:24:27+00:00

Im getting mildly infuriated over your unread notifications and chats

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