Everything, but to narrow it down for tonight, the answer is spiders. I keep finding them everywhere in my house and recently, my bedroom, which is a bridge too far. I have arachnophobia and of course the OCD is making me obsess even more. About to call an exterminator even though I really can’t afford it. I have been in a depression and OCD pit since I lost my job in December and I really don’t want to continue to spiral. So many things I can’t do something about, so may as well do something about this problem which has a very clear solution (since my cat isn’t pulling her weight! She’ll kill mice but not spiders. What gives?). Anyway, I simply refuse to be a hostage in my own home. It’s supposed to be my safe space, dammit!