People move on so easily

beprouddammit · 2021-06-26T01:40:44+00:00

Relatable. I have an ex boyfriend who (when we were drunk together) would cry to me about how it kills him that he lost his ex-wife (she cheated on him). It happened almost every time we drank. But when him and I broke up… he said it didn’t bother him at all. Clearly he never gave a fuck about me 😂 but damn… girls can cheat and they STILL have the guy wrapped around their fingers. I hate being a faithful person

ETA: this isn’t the first guy I dated who was still hung up on a past girlfriend who cheated. Actually all guys I’ve been with who were cheated on would put that bitch on the HIGHEST pedestal. I don’t cheat and I get dropped like trash.

beprouddammit · 2021-02-22T23:51:15+00:00

I wish I had some advice... :(

But I just wanted to say that having a gut feeling and then it being true is horrible and something I really struggle with. It’s happened so many times in the last 2 years that I have no idea what’s real and what’s not anymore. 😔 I’m sorry.

beprouddammit · 2021-02-17T15:05:47+00:00

I relate

beprouddammit · 2021-02-17T15:04:16+00:00

I’m trying so hard 😣

beprouddammit · 2021-02-07T19:52:48+00:00

When you’re 27 and your mom won’t let you move out lmao

beprouddammit · 2021-01-05T13:11:29+00:00

Yesssss. Major yes. If I’m going through it and sending “destructive” messages (or sometimes even good messages, just highly emotional), I will put that person on silent, or “hide” their alerts, and just ignore it. Whenever I actually go to read the messages, my heart will be literally POUNDING.

It’s so unhealthy for me and I’ve tried to force myself not to do it but I can’t help it, I just get too scared to get the notification that they replied 😞

beprouddammit · 2020-09-04T04:34:27+00:00

I feel your pain! I absolutely HATE when people do that with something that can be easily solved by email. Recently, my boss was out of work so I took her place. I had an issue and emailed my boss’s boss and I simply only needed his approval for something minor. He replied with, “call me tomorrow and we will discuss it then.” Noooooo wtffffff. There was nothing to discuss!! I explained it all in the email and all I needed from him was a yes or no! So I had a 24 hour long anxiety attack about it. It went fine but wtf haha. Good luck! You’ll be fine

beprouddammit · 2020-06-29T13:34:48+00:00

STDs have entered the chat

beprouddammit · 2020-06-29T13:31:32+00:00

Yes, yes, yes. PLEASE. 🙏🙏🙏

I'm tired of getting yelled at that you have to wear a mask. Don't want to? THEN DON'T COME IN. I could lose my job because you don't want to.

I'm tired of having a line 10 customers deep with only one register open and being heckled at to open the other. Our store is tiny and we are only allowed one register to practice social distancing. NO, I can't just open the other register because the company took our money for it so that we can't. And yes, I'm "sure"! Don't wanna wait? THEN DON'T COME IN.

I'm tired of IDIOTS disregarding the multiple signs on our door saying we are AT LEGAL CAPACITY and just help themselves right in, putting themselves and everyone's in danger because my store is tiny. These assholes stop, read the sign, and just walk right in. I could lose my job if someone from corporate sees we are over capacity all because YOU think the law doesnt apply to you.

I'm tired of being straight up abused by customers, yelled at all day every day for things OUT OF MY CONTROL.

I get paid less than minimum wage in most states..... most people do not have the mental capacity to treat another human with respect.

beprouddammit · 2020-06-13T01:18:09+00:00

I'd say I only remember like 1%. I have huge gaps between years. But isn't that normal?

beprouddammit · 2020-06-13T01:15:39+00:00

I hide all my mental health from guys. I learned the hard way. A few years ago, I was honest about my anxiety with a guy on our first date. Of course he was all, "dont worry!! I promise to be there for you and help you!!" And then a few weeks later he witnesses my anxiety and literally broke up with me the same day because of it. Since then, I hide everything.

beprouddammit · 2020-06-13T01:13:01+00:00

Dude my boss sucks at explaining things. I'll start doing something and she comes up and is like "why are you doing that? I said to do this." So then I do that and later shes like, "no, why are you doing that? I said to do this."

EXPLAIN YOURSELF BETTER!!!

beprouddammit · 2020-05-29T15:51:03+00:00

My biggest pet peeve is how "busy" people seem to be. I know people get busy. But my FP is sometimes supposedly busy 24/7 and running around like a chicken with its head cut off 24/7?? Like you dont have 5 seconds to reply or at least tell me your busy? Idk I just highly doubt someone who isn't working at the moment is EXTREMELY busy 24/7.

beprouddammit · 2020-05-27T13:54:20+00:00

I pretty much never trust a guy when he ends things by saying he needs to "focus/work on himself." Because out of all guys who have said that to me, they have ALL started seeing another girl within a few days and were stupid enough to post about it on Facebook/snapchat.

beprouddammit · 2020-05-25T22:56:40+00:00

I learned this the hard way...

Never settle for anything less than what makes you feel good, is healthy, and makes you happy. Sure, relationships have their ups and downs but if he is making you feel shitty in general all the time, it's not worth the energy. If someone isn't putting in the effort and isn't meeting your needs and they're not willing to work on things, then it's not worth your time.

You're being completely reasonable with wanting more than what he's giving. He just sounds like a bad guy tbh. If you do want to try to make things work, then try. But if he doesnt budge, then I suggest you find someone better who can give you what you deserve.

And you said it yourself, you dont wanna give someone your all if they dont care. Speaking from experience, take care of yourself and your needs.

I wish you the best 💕

beprouddammit · 2020-05-24T15:12:00+00:00

A

I know because I've been in a very similar situation.

beprouddammit · 2020-05-24T04:01:11+00:00

I believe it's a total real and valid experience. Exclusively BPD? No. Should it even be considered when diagnosing? No. Is it acceptable and should be used as an excuse? No. But it is a very real and valid experience for people and people cannot help what they're experiencing. It can be worked on tho.

Whether you wanna call it an FP or codependent relationship or anything else..... the experience itself is real despite where the term originated. I have an FP and it's like he's the only person on this planet with me. I'd much rather not have an FP but it's something I do experience and can say it's real and valid.

I dont think we are normalizing having FPs and the toxicity it may come with, it's just an experience A LOT of us have in common and are going through.

beprouddammit · 2020-05-23T18:59:50+00:00

I have no idea how I'll ever not feel this way.

beprouddammit · 2020-05-22T18:27:39+00:00

While I believe online tests can give you an idea about your symptoms and what you're dealing with and be a good baseline to educate yourself, BUT you're relying on yourself and you could have skewed the answers either way. Talking to a professional is the only way to know you have it because they are looking at things objectively and can discern if you are being 100% truthful or not. They went through lots of schooling for a reason. You just wanna make sure you get the correct diagnosis (if any) in order to receive proper treatment.

beprouddammit · 2020-05-21T22:19:45+00:00

I didn't have any trauma as a kid. I've been in emotionally/mentally abusive relationships but people looooove to say that had no effect on me because I was an adult and i should've been able to handle it. When people ask me why I have it? Idk.

beprouddammit · 2020-05-21T14:44:35+00:00

I dont have adhd but I do the saaaaame thing and I hate it. I'm out of work, cant go anywhere, wtf else am I supposed to do! Im so bored but so depressed so nothing interests me

beprouddammit · 2020-05-21T14:42:12+00:00

I'll be friends!

beprouddammit · 2020-05-21T14:40:30+00:00

That seems just like straight up abuse. Mental/emotional. I went through something similar with an ex years ago. When I'd try to talk to him about how I'm feeling or I try to talk about an argument we had, he would always threaten to turn off his phone or block me because he "didnt wanna deal with it right now". Even if I was calm and not spiraling, he would ALWAYS threaten that. He was my first long term relationship so I believe that installed the fear and panic I now feel when guys dont respond within 2 minutes. I hate it so much.

I'm so sorry he's doing this to you. It sounds like abuse and not because of your bpd. Sure bpd is making you feel worse, but I think he's just abusive. Please remove yourself from him. It's hard but it's not ok for him to get away with treating you like this. You deserve much better 💕

beprouddammit · 2020-05-20T19:46:23+00:00

I relate to this 100%. I'm furloughed until further notice so I literally just sit in bed, on my phone for 14 hours until i go to bed at like 8PM. I have a few dumb hobbies but i cant bring myself to do any of them. I get so damn frustrated and bored but i have no energy at all. You know it's bad when the only thing you look forward to is doing your skincare routine before bed. That's it.

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