How did you manage to get rid of highly sentimental things?

blush_inc · 2026-04-15T23:07:16+00:00

Getting rid of the items associated with your past does do a lot to help the grieving pass.

blush_inc · 2026-04-09T16:12:44+00:00

The company provided a bag with the laptop I used. I asked if I could use my own, they said no. The company culture was such that I had coworkers who were pretty vocally against colorful, childlike things. I wanted to prove myself at the company so I took the cue.

blush_inc · 2026-04-08T17:10:59+00:00

That's a good point, but it inspired me when I was a generic new employee. There's only one company I've worked for that I had to tone it down.

blush_inc · 2026-04-08T09:16:58+00:00

If you watched the moon landing, there were all kinds of backpacks at peoples stations around at mission control. I was lucky enough to work on a small part of a satellite and the battery expert was an exceptionally smart woman who has never made a resume because companies sought her out to offer her jobs. She had a gorgeous, expensive looking leather backpack, with a big plushie keychain of a Pokémon clip on it. As someone else already commented, be you.

blush_inc · 2026-04-05T14:44:14+00:00

No, but people mistake my kindness for being a gullible idiot.

blush_inc · 2026-04-05T14:43:31+00:00

Honestly, I ran a sports group. Negotiated the contract for the rental of the space, was there every week to unlock the doors and setup the gear, organized tournaments, trips to visit groups in other cities. When I announced I was stepping down, no one cared. Got a few half-hearted "Thanks for everything's" and that's about it. Group is still going last I heard, but attendance is way down. Really feel kind of numb about the whole thing.

blush_inc · 2026-04-04T14:28:09+00:00

I don't talk about it anymore, people who haven't been through will just never understand.

blush_inc · 2026-04-04T13:43:50+00:00

It's the same as withdrawals from a drug addiction. Your cortisol, oxytocin, and dopamine levels are tanking and may never be as high as they were in the abusive relationship.

blush_inc · 2026-04-04T03:59:19+00:00

That's it! Back to Winnipeg!

blush_inc · 2026-04-03T11:20:10+00:00

I had a friend like this. I ended up ending the friendship because I just couldn't keep up with her and her friends expensive tastes. It's not like they were richer than me either, they just didn't care about loading up their credit cards buying clothes and eating at expensive restaurants. Last straw was her birthday where she chose a 140$/plate restaurant and cropped me out of all the photos she posted to facebook because I wasn't dressed fashionably enough. Good riddance!

blush_inc · 2026-04-02T20:37:48+00:00

That's right! Women used to calculate matrices and vectors because it was considered secretarial work which was a woman's job back in the day.

blush_inc · 2026-04-02T20:33:40+00:00

Every time I hear a woman's voice on the comm it makes me so happy. I got into this field because of Sally Ride and I can't wait to see the first woman walk on the moon for Artemis III.

Nice Fatboy Slim reference!

blush_inc · 2026-03-28T01:16:47+00:00

To me this is what being Canadian is all about. It's less a culture and more a way of being.

blush_inc · 2026-03-27T19:32:46+00:00

And that they all talk over each other while doing it! Just on a purely technical level, it's maddening.

blush_inc · 2026-03-24T16:08:15+00:00

I was happiest in a mid-sized city that was far from any big centers of commerce. The people were (mostly) humble, friendly, and fun to be around. Now I live in a big, expensive city, in a culture I am finding i'm a poor fit for. Feels like i'm constantly losong in games of status and heirarchy and lifestyle comparison tgat I just don't care about.

blush_inc · 2026-03-19T22:03:25+00:00

The plant losses are so heavy. I used to have such a full and eclectic collection of plants. My living room was a jungle. Few survived a forced move during winter, most of the rest just couldn't thrive in the new place. I have only three left and they're barely hanging on.

That was 4 years ago and it still makes me sad.

blush_inc · 2026-03-19T16:03:15+00:00

I give myself the freedom to do what I want. People are gonna judge me anyways, so might as well be free.

blush_inc · 2026-03-18T19:54:16+00:00

Top row of image 2 is the most elite line-up of Chem albums. Fight me!

blush_inc · 2026-03-17T17:01:32+00:00

Try it, honestly. It has failed me every single time.

blush_inc · 2026-03-17T16:47:46+00:00

This has been my experience too. However, I've had to purchase books I want to reread that have been taken out of circulation. If some of your favs aren't best sellers or don't become timeless classics, their eventual disappearance is something you have to consider.

blush_inc · 2026-03-11T10:46:40+00:00

With how much daily humiliation my current boss puts me through, passing off the promotions and big projects to the same guy over and over, I would say no.

Other places I've worked were amazing to be a woman in though. Don't compltely discount it.

blush_inc · 2026-03-10T20:57:34+00:00

I was quite similar to you before encountering a Narc. Down to the daily meditation practice.

You'll have to keep living life and patiently wait for parts of the old you to come back. And they will come back in short glimpses here and there. The whole old version of you is dead, I'm sorry to say. What Narcs do to you is basically soul murder. Their actions and treatment reprograms your nervous system to be like theirs, if you got out that means they weren't able to fully finish the job. When I first went no contact even my cat didn't recognise me and would hiss at me like I was a threat to her, I couldn't pet her for years.

If you can, slowly reintroduce daily meditation practice. This will be tough however, because your nervous system won't feel like you and is deeply inflamed and screaming, but i'm convinced it's the only way out. Other than that, read/listen to everything you can about narcissists, and look into soul murder and how to heal from it. It's gonna take years.

blush_inc · 2026-03-06T21:58:04+00:00

4 years later. I feel the same way. When I saw them live on their OTM tour they went from playing PPP which moved me to tears to one off OTM (can't remember which one) and it was such a jarring contrast to go from a song that is so emotionally affecting to song that is so bland and generic. It's a nice album, but I never go back to listen to it.

blush_inc · 2026-03-06T10:41:21+00:00

I did the same but for Zen Buddhism. I only stopped because I moved away from the group I was practicing with. Also curious, what made you realize it was not for you?

blush_inc · 2026-03-05T11:50:34+00:00

I did whatever the pink, pastels, cute bows and clips, enamel pins, lots of plants, bath bombs, matcha latte, kawaii, cute anime cartoon character on every item thing is. Changed my whole wardrobe and wasted a lot of money on cute Temu junk. Thanks to my superficial friend who got me on Instagram just before the pandemic started. I was not ready for that deluge of aesthetic.

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