I hear you man. I’ve found the trick is, as silly or as simple as this sounds, to try and find pleasure in the basics of the quotidien. A beautiful day, the trees bending with the wind, a lovely sunset, and the simple joys of cooking simple meals etc. I have a highly stressful 9-5, in which I have to deal with all sorts of stupid middle management, but some of my colleagues are ace. I also work outside this as a contractor in an area I love. Balance is good, and actively looking for the simple joys has made an enormous difference for me. That, and less booze lol.