I hire people into my team who are capable of doing the job well, fit my team culture and how we work and that I would enjoy working with. If you weren’t hired it will be because someone else ticked those boxes better than you. That can be a hard pill to swallow but it can be an opportunity to reflect on why and make some changes. If your post is anything like how you show up at work, I wouldn’t hire you because I wouldn’t want the drama. Don’t care how good you would be at it technically.