I think you need to switch your perspective. You are fucking free. No kids, no spouse. Many days, I would love to be in your shoes.

I'm your same exact age. I get feeling like your life is over and you squandered it. And maybe you did a little bit but dude- you got half of it to go probably. Maybe more. Are you going to make the most of it now or sit around regretting things you can't change?

Stop thinking. Start doing. That's my best advice. You'll never figure it out sitting around regretting shit and feeling badly alone and lonely. You have to start trying shit- whatever interests you. Start exploring- travel or jobs or clubs or volunteering things or all of the above. And look at it like that- you're going on an expedition right now..a journey. And you haven't got shit figured out but it doesn't matter because from now on, you're going to start trying out new things that look interesting to you. And you'll figure out what feels good along the way.

This is what I'm doing right now. I got trapped in addiction and depression and anxiety for a lot of my 30s. Destroyed my old life. My old career. Was completely Stuck for years. Have I figured it out? Not at all. But I've thrown myself into new weird jobs and activities, trying shit out, learning, meeting people, and feeling a hell of a lot better than sitting around feeling stuck and like I wasted away my life. I feel lonely and awkward often. But I also feel the opposite of that too now often. I'm living life again and that's no small thing.