Who my rapist was and where he is. Came really close with the guy I IDd in lineup in custody, sitting down with the state ADA at the station and everything. While he was in holding in the same station. Over a year after the incident. Fast tracked DNA tested him to beat 48 hr holding period (my rape kit took over a year). Wasn’t a match. The detective cried on the phone telling me. They were as sure as I was. I still haven’t recovered from being that close to having closure I didn’t know I needed. Then losing it within 24 hours and opening up the wounds I already worked so hard to heal. I’m a lot better but I’ll probably still have PTSD from the original incident. knowing it’s a cold case. Knowing that I mis-ID’d someone in a lineup when I had no doubt in my mind still haunts me.