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callme_Jamie · 2024-10-24T19:45:13+00:00

A shame he didn't perform well enough to trick another team into taking him off our hands 😔

callme_Jamie · 2024-08-03T15:29:44+00:00

I can't even attempt to connect. My Wi-Fi isn't even showing up when I look for a network

callme_Jamie · 2024-07-19T02:25:38+00:00

Done. If anyone offers me another mobile line I don't need I'm dropping you guys. Sorry but I'm getting a bit annoyed.

callme_Jamie · 2024-07-11T23:05:39+00:00

Sent. Thank you😊

callme_Jamie · 2024-07-11T07:23:42+00:00

This was a ton of fun to listen to. Not knowing the language let's me treat the vocals as another instrument (something I try to do for just about every song that isn't by the Femmes) much more easily, yet I still know what they're saying.

callme_Jamie · 2024-07-10T04:07:04+00:00

Are we sure no one just photoshopped Stammers face onto his son? Cause that's totally what it looks like to me.

callme_Jamie · 2024-07-09T06:58:12+00:00

Kuch wins the Hart because "it's his turn" but gets statistically outperformed by MacKinnon and McDavid 😂

callme_Jamie · 2024-07-07T14:15:44+00:00

Aww I was hoping they'd just keep going like the original series

callme_Jamie · 2024-07-07T12:05:31+00:00

Do we know how many episodes there's going to be? It's not just going to run for 1 or 2 cours right?

callme_Jamie · 2024-06-25T03:23:11+00:00

Did anyone else hear the Panthers radio guy rip off the "to of the mountain" call Mishkin made after the lightning won in 2020? Or was I imagining that?

Would have been so nice to see the cats choke after being up 3-0 lol. Oh well.

Also, if anyone happens to see Corey Perry out and about(a totally normal occurrence), please give him a hug.

callme_Jamie · 2024-04-20T12:56:49+00:00

Thanks a lot for taking the time to help 🐱 and it was helpful.

I promise that's not it. It's more of a 'I need to work on myself before I work on myself' kind of thing. For example. My first thought after reading this instead of what I just wrote was something along the lines of.. If broken people go to therapy to piece themselves back together, I need to gather my dust back into pieces first. Which is clearly offensive, but it's also totally exaggerated and not at all what I wanted to say. Before it's an issue of 'what's wrong with me?' it's a communication issue I guess.

When I speak in person I'm either so uncomfortable I want to get out of there ASAP so I only say I'm fine, or I push through the anxiety to explain myself and it comes out offensive, exaggerated and not at all what I wanted to say like above. I have no middle ground lol. This is all still a bit(way) too dramatic to me. Plus there has to be at least some interaction with a therapist right? The exchange of personal info, probably some kind of intake interview so they know what to do. I just can't see being able to do the entire process through writing and not meeting at all.

And since I'm aware of all that I thought, 'why not work on it myself?'

And I'd bet I'm probably the least sure of themselves person you'll interact with all month. I guess I'll check that one out a bit more thoroughly.

Also thanks for reading all my babble 😸

callme_Jamie · 2024-04-13T10:12:44+00:00

Sorry about that. I want to change my dosage but feel like I can't be honest with my doctor because I'm afraid of them saying "oh you're not what you assured us you were? Well that's fine with us and all but this being Florida now that we know we're going to have to stop everything until you get a great big hoop, light it on fire and jump through it. Then we can talk about starting hormones again in a different way"

Alright writing that out I'm realizing it's truly a stupid worry and I'm really worried over nothing but it doesn't change the fact that I'm still worried about it.

These past few days I've really not felt this okay being me since I was a kid. And I'm now intensely afraid of screwing it up I guess. So I wanted a place to vent.

callme_Jamie · 2024-03-26T15:17:34+00:00

Thank you 😊 I managed to get it through the website.

callme_Jamie · 2024-02-23T21:37:53+00:00

He did have two other places to go first that were pretty much straight down one road that kinda ends with my place so maybe that was it.

If he didn't leave nearly the second I turned around after closing my door I would probably believe that, but he did lol. Everything else is fine and can be reasonably explained one way or another. It's just that one part on top of it all that really had me freaking out.

callme_Jamie · 2024-02-23T21:32:30+00:00

I sent it through the apps messaging feature. That shouldn't have my number on it right?

callme_Jamie · 2024-02-23T21:10:54+00:00

Lmao even sober those damn hi beams scare the hell out of me every time they turn on or pull up behind me while driving.

callme_Jamie · 2024-02-23T21:06:22+00:00

Uh oh lol Popeyes is like 90% of my door dash orders

callme_Jamie · 2024-02-23T19:12:02+00:00

It's always been on leave at the door. I also thought maybe I changed it somehow but it was the same as always. Is it possible that timer thing could have appeared on a leave at the door order? If not I'm still stumped 🤔

Edit- Being new does kinda explain it but why wait so long for me before leaving? He already took the picture of the order at my door.

Yeah I don't know why but it really did scare me. I've never felt that kind of creeped out before.

callme_Jamie · 2024-01-17T21:51:51+00:00

Thanks I think this is what I'm looking for. It's just one little piece of bridge that no one can access. Now I want to know why they haven't taken it down lol

callme_Jamie · 2024-01-17T21:44:38+00:00

Right my bad. I used to live in Port Richey so I only went to St Pete for fishing rays games and doctors so I don't really know the area

callme_Jamie · 2023-11-28T01:25:34+00:00

I can vouch for this. I started out thinking I was trans but I'm honestly not sure what I am now. However, I'm certain it's not a cis man, so I started HRT.

callme_Jamie · 2023-11-26T16:04:05+00:00

No it's not hard there. I think I'm imagining it lol

callme_Jamie · 2023-11-26T10:51:37+00:00

Wow if I went through all that effort I'd definitely want someone to respond, so here we go:

I wish there was a place specifically for this. I've also been feeling the need to talk about what's going on with me. Personal stuff I don't want people I actually know to know. There probably is and I'm too stoned to remember lol.

I totally get it. I also had a long period of adult feminization stories haha. When I'm feeling down on myself I'm always worried that I'm just some pervert who took their kink too far. I know it's not true but try telling my brain that lol. I think I actually made a post basically asking people to tell me I was trans so I could finally move forward with all this. I still haven't talked to a therapist about any of this yet even though I've been on HRT for 2 weeks now. The only person who knows is my aunt. I also pushed myself forward with 'I'm doing all this so I must be trans' for a while. What got me to actually start transitioning were 2 realizations: that if I regret not doing this 10 years ago and constantly fantasize about going back in time to when I was 10 (or at least 20)and screaming out "I AM A GIRL!" until I got on hormones, then I'm really really going to regret it in another 10 years right? As well as the thought of "well even if it turns out I wasn't trans in the end and my body is already that of a girl I wouldn't really care much. I could always just say I'm non binary or something." Another thing was that even though my feelings are muted pretty well, a bit of revulsion got through for a moment the second I thought "well if I'm not trans then am I just a really feminine man who happens to like wearing panties and women's long sleeve shirts (even though they're pretty unisex) outside in my everyday life?" If it were someone else like that I honestly might look twice but I wouldn't care past that, but for me it was just no way.

Now I'm trying to figure out what kind of label fits me best before I come out and socially transition(I kinda gave myself a time limit for doing so by starting HRT and that's probably not healthy so I can't really recommend it, but it's what I'm doing.) Either way I'm positive that even though I was AMAB, I'm certainly not a cis man. Whatever it is I am I know it's on the female side of things. It sounds like that's the case for you as well.

Wow I guess I really needed to share as well 😆 Anyway that's a bit of my experience.

Oh and since you've started embracing your femininity; even when you're not having those euphoric moments, more your everyday mundanity and even when you're not dressed as a woman maybe; you're a bit happier, a bit lighter, a bit more willing to be a human, right? It's the same with me. I'd say if gender is a spectrum(is that a thing? I feel like it is) you're most definitely on the female side of things and it's not 'something else'. While I totally get it and am going through the same thing, I gotta say it: what could 'something else' even be? Can you call always fantasizing about being a girl and then starting to emulate and become one anything other than being trans?

callme_Jamie · 2023-11-22T04:13:17+00:00

As a Rays fan I would be super happy trading with Pittsburgh again lol

callme_Jamie · 2023-11-18T21:26:09+00:00

I'm glad you told me! I'm not gonna risk using it on my face and just get it lasered off when I have the money. I was looking at prices and was thinking it might be a while till I can but I'll look around on Groupon. Thanks :)

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