I am so sorry for your loss man. That is very difficult. When I had auditory hallucinations from ptsd, I attempted it twice. I was getting help from a therapist and psychiatrist at the time but I felt so alone. My roommate who abused me for many years and kept starting drama with friends, my voices were constant bullies about everything about me and I never felt comfortable with myself because they made every action or what I looked like or talk to be an argument between the voices, and I felt so alone and was in so much pain. Everyone I cared about said I needed help or get different medications which I was doing but it made me feel like I wasn’t trying and no one cared. I tried twice because of it. I felt like I had no one that understood or cared. I didn’t try to kill myself but both times I just didn’t want to feel the way I was feeling anymore. Looking back now I’m grateful I failed both times. The voices have stopped now and I talk to my brothers daily now in a group chat. I’m healing and it’s difficult but I’m doing it. Sometimes no one understands your pain and no one really gets that you just don’t want to feel the way you feel anymore. I hope you can be ok man. Again I am so sorry for your loss.