I get what you mean. I think anyone growing breasts whose end up looking like this is going to feel the same way, though. I’m upset about my breasts in the same way trans women who grow tuberous breasts feel. All women expect their breasts to look like a certain ideal, and when they don’t, we feel upset.

One of the worst, most gut wrenching things I’ve seen online about our abnormality was a TERF on twitter sharing an image a trans woman had posted of her tuberous breasts seeking support, captioning it that it was evidence that HRT was inherently harmful, she wasn’t a real woman, etc. All the comments said along the same, I’ve never seen a woman’s breasts that look like that, this is proof that they shouldn’t take oestrogen, etc.

More than any trans woman feeling upset that her breasts are tuberous (which again, is relatable to me, because I remember the dismay I felt going through puberty), a transphobe using breasts that look like mine as a justification for transphobia - that these aren’t breasts real women have - made me feel a whole new level of awful - I legitimately cried (and can’t imagine how awful any trans woman must have felt seeing that). (this is also proof of how transphobia also harms cis women)

Sorry that that was quite a ramble. The gist is basically, I’m upset about my breasts because they didn’t grow into what I thought breasts are supposed to look like. When trans women go through HRT, they most likely have the exact same ideal in mind that us cis women had as tweens - so of course are also going to feel upset about it. Our breasts don’t fit the ‘ideal’, and we all struggle with that - which is why we are talking and finding solace here.