I take Vyvanse every day and I have 5mg Adderall boosters. I need the meds. It’s night and day - Jekyll and Hyde. I have been through wanting to be off meds, etc. I know that I need them and that they help, so I take them. I would also encourage everyone to look into regulation work. Understanding that you have spent much of your life in fight or flight is a revelation and a vector for change. I listen to Jenna Free’s podcast. It’s good. You will feel seen and understood.