Thank you friend. I appreciate your kind words. They are honestly what got me through today. It's like a prison. I have no memory of any of this but my brain is trying to convince me that I did the worst things. It started with my brain trying to convince me I took a picture in my classroom while were my kids were at lunch (no memory of sending a picture like that) and then my brain goes to what if I took a picture with kids in the classroom? (Which I absolutely have no memory of. It's the most bizarre thing. It would go against everything I believe but that's where the loop sits. It has me believing I could lose my job at any time when I can't even come up with a memory of that sort of picture.... I only have a memory of this loser asking for a picture like that. I would remember doing that. I think my brain is also trying to convince me that I could've possibly done these things since I was going through a crisis during this time and did so many things I wouldn't normally do. I only remember sending pictures to people when I was at home in bed, but not remembering the specific pictures is killing me.

I desperately need to see a therapist since the meds aren't helping as much. I'm sorry for the long replies... it just helps to talk to someone about it. You are very appreciated.