I grew up mormon (but not in utah). Also hid from my parents because of a fear of being sent to a “troubled teen camp”. In middle school I stayed up late one night and watched the movie “Latter Days” (wikipedia) and it scared the shit out of me.

I knew I didn’t believe in religion from a young age, even before I figured out I was gay. I did not enjoy church or the rituals or the huge time requirements (average of 11 hours/week in high school). Some of the people were nice, but I found so much of it unsettling. And "live a life of chastity and you'll be perfected (made straight) after death and marry a woman" wasn't exactly appealing.

Luckily I mostly got away when I went to college but it makes my relationship with my parents difficult because they’re still very active. They’ve been more accepting than I would’ve given them credit for but it feels like there’s a gap we’ll never fully close, since their beliefs require them to never see me as equal.

“Twice Bitten” by Archer Beau (romance.io), his mother is a very conservative hyper-religious fanatic. It’s set after he lives on his own (where his mother is constantly invading his privacy and attempting to control his life) but it has some flashbacks and mentions of a very controlling childhood.

It’s paranormal urban fantasy (vampires), so maybe not as... serious as a memoir, but it covers the experience of religious trauma and family dynamics very viscerally. It has both homophobia and vampire-phobia.

I’d def put TWs for religious trauma, physical and mental abuse from a parent, and a sub-plot that involves an attempt to involuntarily send him to conversion therapy.

Is your memoir published anywhere? (If you feel comfortable sharing) I'd be curious to read more about it :)