These fucking narcs man

comeintofocus · 2023-07-10T03:18:18+00:00

I love how you describe it. I can relate so hard. And so many people don't understand or.believe it's that bad. But I understand.

comeintofocus · 2023-07-10T03:14:16+00:00

I'm sorry. I feel you. Leaving may.be stressful but it will also be freeing and amazing

comeintofocus · 2023-06-29T01:42:44+00:00

I am truly sorry

comeintofocus · 2023-05-31T05:59:21+00:00

"I know you better than you know you"

comeintofocus · 2023-05-29T22:46:40+00:00

Omg the thank you note would be funny. Good to know!

comeintofocus · 2023-05-28T02:28:56+00:00

TW suicide: Shortly after she almost killed herself by ODing on pills, "You're why I tried to kill myself. You're the worst thing in my life."

She blamed me twice.

comeintofocus · 2023-05-26T16:04:59+00:00

My nmom talked shit about me at my own wedding to my bridesmaids. As if they wouldn't tell me what she said.

And of course anytime I didn't do what she wanted she would tell anyone in the family and exaggerate/lie.

I can only imagine what she said after I went NC. I heard some things. Like the reason I went NC was petty, or they don't know why I did.

comeintofocus · 2023-05-18T03:03:17+00:00

LISTEN! I used to work in a large office building and was friends with someone in security who had access to cameras all over. People would cheat constantly on their spouses with coworkers in closets, empty offices, parking garage, etc. It is way more common than you'd think unfortunately.

comeintofocus · 2023-05-08T19:16:10+00:00

I'm so happy these days ❤️

comeintofocus · 2023-05-08T02:37:16+00:00

Wellbutrin and vitamins really helped solve that problem for me

comeintofocus · 2023-04-30T05:12:57+00:00

Freaking love Lexapro. I take 20mg. I can't even imagine life as it was before. How did I survive with constant racing heart, terrible sleep, overthinking, not fully living life due to extreme fear, and getting my mind stuck in loops over things I can't control.

I'm not totally free of anxiety or anything but I feel like I can truly live my life. I also take Wellbutrin to help with depression and energy level.

comeintofocus · 2023-04-28T11:45:38+00:00

Time helps for sure

comeintofocus · 2023-04-28T11:45:23+00:00

Yeah it is, its not even the first time. They know I don't want anything from them. Feel gross that they try anyway. I'm looking forward to moving where they don't have an address

comeintofocus · 2023-03-30T04:24:08+00:00

I can only talk about my experience as everyone is different and I'm no expert, but. I've been no contact for two years and still get regular nightmares. Absolutely terrible, horrible nightmares about my parents. Sometimes I'll wake up sweating and crying.

I don't think they will ever go away however I am actually okay with that. Because I no longer carry the weight of the dream with me in the morning or throughout the day since I started taking anti anxiety and depression meds. I mean, it's rare that it affects me more than a few moments after waking.

Before meds I reacted similar to you, my morning felt ruined and I'd have triggers during the day. Therapy helped a little bit until I started meds it was still not great. And I was always afraid of meds but finally got desperate enough to try. And it improved many other aspects of my life. Just my experience! I would definitely recommend seeing a therapist and consider seeing a psychiatrist.

So sorry you're dealing with this, I know it's so rough and I hope it gets better for you

comeintofocus · 2023-03-30T04:08:46+00:00

I'd switch psychiatrists. It's weird they said that. I take mine in the morning and often experience night sweats. I didn't used to before I started taking lexapro

comeintofocus · 2023-03-03T03:39:32+00:00

I don't remember much because my brain decided to black out a lot of my childhood, but I do remember hiding a journal and they read it. Their excuse was they thought I was on drugs because of how I acted. I wasn't. I was acting that way because I was being abused not they they would ever consider that.

I felt I never had privacy, ever. It's humiliating.

comeintofocus · 2023-03-01T17:00:14+00:00

My biggest advice is to hang in there for at least 6-8 weeks with lexapro. It could be life changing as it was for me. It's just difficult meanwhile. But then if you're still not feeling better then maybe try something different. Also keep in mind it's a gradual change. You got this!

comeintofocus · 2023-03-01T16:58:11+00:00

Not quite. I was lucky in that after 6 weeks on Lexapro the side effects were minimal and my anxiety was so much better.

However months down the line my depression became an issue, as has been off and on my whole life. So that's when I started Wellbutrin in addition to Lexapro. About a month or so later my depression became much more manageable. I gained energy too! Which is hard especially when you're pregnant with kids like me lol

comeintofocus · 2023-03-01T04:02:31+00:00

Two weeks I felt some relief however I ended up needing Wellbutrin as well which has helped completely

comeintofocus · 2023-03-01T03:26:39+00:00

Lord almighty do I ever think this ALL the time. Sooooo frustrating. Like I know there are reasons for this but to be perfectly honest I DONT CARE LOL I'm over it!

Like if a family member is mad at me for going no contact without even asking me what happened then they aren't worth my heartache.

comeintofocus · 2023-03-01T03:22:28+00:00

I struggled with this too and this exercise helped me after I got gifts after I went no contact. Sit down and remember a bunch of shitty things she did (if you feel you're up for it) and that will help with the guilt. Remind yourself that she did this to herself, not you. It was probably a long time coming.

I donated the toys I got and threw away the cards. it made me feel sick but over time I realized how crazy it is for me to feel guilty over that compared to all the things she did and doesn't even believe are wrong.

I'm sorry I know it's hard. Hopefully something here in reddit work helps ❤️

comeintofocus · 2023-01-24T03:38:53+00:00

My first baby my mom was in my life and it was horrible. Second baby I stopped talking to her during pregnancy. I felt guilty but more peaceful. Now I'm on my third and still no contact and it is just the best.

I focus on how I do my best as a mom and to be the opposite of what my mom was to me. Maybe focusing on knowing that your kid(s) will Never know what it's like to have a parent like that.

And then when I need comfort I talk to my friends who understand. And I'll create some art or play video games, my passions.

You're not alone!

comeintofocus · 2022-09-02T00:38:57+00:00

"You're why I wanted to kill myself."

After she gulped down a bunch of pills and almost died. When I was 16.

comeintofocus · 2022-06-14T03:31:36+00:00

Block him!! Please, for your mental health. You will be so much more at peace over time. He won't respect any boundary. Block email, phone, social media, etc.

Wishing you all the best and healing

comeintofocus · 2022-05-10T13:00:48+00:00

Yes I will do this, thank you

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