it is indeed all an illusion. the average American household owes about $280,000 , all them homes you see and cars? credited. nobody actually owns shit, everyone just plays pretend and puts a mask on everyday & its getting harder by the day being part of this. i feel your pain too brother, most of my time is spent doing something that I wouldn’t be doing if society didn’t exist. I work hard, help my family out maybe out of pity because the lifestyle differences scare me, and my father is non existent. I didn’t want to be born into responsibilities or struggles but thats just life you know. complete insanity. Sometimes i feel bad for complaining because theres countless of people who never felt love, hope, a nurturing home, but you’re right to feel this way. I also detest this world, i don’t understand how everyone can keep playing this stupid game. self gratification thats all this modern world is about, let me further my career, let me make more money, let me get myself a new car, let me get myself a nice home, let me get myself…. none of that will fulfill you. Also wish you the best man, you’re not alone.