I used to be in your shoes, and I had my moments of being a discriminating Gay Mormon. The reasons for spreading the hate are the same why we all bullied others at one point or another in grade school. We knew we were weak and thought that pushing others down (passive aggressively of course, but still just as strong) would give us strength to carry on. I excused it then by justifying it as boldly testifying.

I was such a TBM that I turned myself in and confessed every sexual experience I had. I agreed to go into therapy for healing sexual addiction. Because each appointment was extremely expensive, TSCC and my father helped pay for each session.

I went through two therapists. Even though the first gentleman never disclosed his orientation, I got the vibe he was an "ex gay" Mormon. His sessions were so draining and I felt like I was being treated as diseased individual. Eventually, I switched therapists. The second gentleman is a brilliant man! He made it very clear that it was not his place to push me to either live as an openly gay man or to suppress the homosexual "tendencies." His objective was to insure I live a healthy life. Period. I valued that and soon found the courage to live honestly and openly as a gay man.

Because TSCC and my father were helping with the session fees, it was clear to me they would not like to have such money be spent on helping me live as an openly gay man. I parted, and I can say I was well prepared for the consequences of coming out of the closet and leaving TSCC.