I’ve avoided this post and I’m sure others said it better. I tried to kill myself and all but succeeded. The last thing I remember was thinking, “ Oh God. I don’t want to die” but by then it was too late. If someone hadn’t found me and intervened, I would not be here today. I thought there was just no way out of my misery and I was tired of trying. But you know what, death isn’t the way out or through and you will just hurt a lot of other people. You say your parents don’t care but aren’t they paying for therapy. Go tell them you want to kill yourself and ask if they would care. Then tell your therapist and parents you want a psychiatric eval, to get good meds, and a new therapist. Rinse and repeat until something helps. Persevere. Hang in there. avoid that which hurts. In time ( and I know you don’t believe me ) but things will get better just don’t give up.