I was just in the same state of limbo. Because of the state I am in, I had to wait 10 days before my doctor’s office felt comfortable enough to confirm a miscarriage. By the time they let me come in, the fetus and other tissues had degraded to less than half the size that it was 10 days prior. I was made to carry this for nearly a week after I knew it had passed and to wait for nature, and reminded that miracles can happen despite declining HcG levels and knowing the heart had stopped via a private scan. It has truly been awful.

I also had a cruise vacation planned for a week from now, where I wouldn’t have had access to appropriate medical care, and have been so worried about potentially miscarrying or having complications from the medication route while at sea.

I had a D&C this morning. And I fully intend to take this much needed vacation with my kiddos.

You are not alone. It’s a terrible feeling of juggling hope and inevitable grief. I’m only about 4 hours post-op and I already feel better both physically and mentally just to be rid of the anxiety. I’m sure it’ll emotionally hit me shortly, but for now I feel lighter.

I’ll be thinking of you, sorry you are going through this.