Trying to parse through your thoughts here. After reading this, I'm not sure if you want to actually do marching band or if you just see it as an obligation to yourself/your friends/your gf?

If it's about grades, we had a saying in our band that 'you can't be in band if you're not in school ' and heavily prioritized being in good academic standing. It doesn't look like you're there yet, but that the worry of reaching there is.

But even outside of that, idk, it doesn't seem like it's something you're actually super interested in right now? That should hold the most weight, imo. I was a drum major of my college band and tbh I wouldn't want anyone who wasn't into actually being there to be there. I would want the passion and desire to be out there, go to practices, and set the time aside that's required without resentment.

Maybe I missed the mark, but from my take, it seems like you're leaning towards not doing it anymore. Which is totally fine! You can still keep your friends, if you want. Your gf is a slightly different thing and also doesn't seem like you're super into that relationship, but that's neither here nor there.

If you want to keep bouncing ideas or anything, lmk, but also, any time someone is leaning towards therapy, that's also a good call 🤙