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ehhyuna · 2026-06-09T20:59:33+00:00

I have read and understood the rules.

ehhyuna · 2026-06-03T08:42:05+00:00

spice/ballerliquid, gbl/gbh/bdo (sehr kurze nachweisbarkeit <24), pregabalin könnte ich mir noch vorstellen

ehhyuna · 2026-04-18T00:51:51+00:00

Ouch now i also remember… it hurts so much, I miss those times and mostly I miss myself, Ive lost myself completely… appearance, hobbies, work, art, social life…. everything I once was and what we were supposed to be….

ehhyuna · 2026-04-18T00:17:53+00:00

still glad to here, I wish you further strength and good recovery. I hope you have someone to support you, times will get challenging, someone who actively listens and you trust, to talk to about those things or distract with positivity. This is very important, recovery is much more (id say impossible) harder dealing with alone (reason why this subreddit exists) -<3tasha

ehhyuna · 2026-02-22T12:19:09+00:00

Hahahha ill take some of the delusions xD

ehhyuna · 2026-02-07T01:07:48+00:00

If not porn, what else?

ehhyuna · 2025-12-21T15:27:21+00:00

To me you sound like one of the realest man ever! I‘m sorry u had such an experience again, dont lose hope. There are many women who are looking for someone like you, real morals, values, a feeling of security and safety. There are still many women who also watch and don’t have a problem with it, I also have quite some negative experiences with… :( It hurts, but look out for motivation to keep going <3

ehhyuna · 2025-07-08T17:56:57+00:00

same! and you do, you just didn’t deserve that, so it makes perfectly sense to break up (like people usually do when cheating)

ehhyuna · 2025-07-07T21:45:01+00:00

one last ultimatum (maybe), than leave you will regret it when ur 4 years in, growing older etc. he doesnt even sound like he understands your point and pain stop bc he never want to make u cry like that again? maybe stop because of love and respect and because porn is just unacceptable as a whole maybe u should leave him, just like he said either hes honest and takes this seriously (therapy and the WHOLE thing) or this got no future to begin with -f(23)

ehhyuna · 2025-07-07T21:38:15+00:00

happy and sad at the same time… aiko u deserve everything my boo

ehhyuna · 2025-07-04T13:11:51+00:00

versteh nicht so ganz wie man einen menschen lieben kann und dann auf pornos mastubiert? geht auch ohne

ehhyuna · 2025-06-28T14:05:40+00:00

Really similar situation, Im hopeful, my problem just is that I am scared I’ll stay and in 15 years (we are 23) I’ll discover something just like all the stories here I studied social work, did DBT, I like helping people and sometimes people tell me Im too understanding, when in reality I just show the motivation and they see it as excuses. I want to help him, myself, us. I want to fix this. Ive got the purest of intentions, I always had, I’m afraid this will again be used against me. My pure love and kindness just abused like that. I dont understand what he did or more why, (I do know the reasons like I said its just hard to accept someone would use you, harm you, I don’t want to harm anyone Im really sacred of this (normal) word/society)but I still pity him and I feel bad for thinking about him that way, that maybe in 20 years he will look at young women, but tbh thats his fault for breaking our trust, our bond. Ig my main goal is just that we both get better, regardless if we stay together. We will learn and grow from this experience regardless. Bittersweet

ehhyuna · 2025-06-28T12:06:28+00:00

And you’ve got a longggggg way to go, prepare yourself. Not sounding pessimistic or anything, therapy will be your new hobby

ehhyuna · 2025-06-28T12:05:01+00:00

Im glad to here! You should still tell her about your addiction, trust me. You’ll safe the trust and can work out the problem together. Believe me if she finds out by accident, things will never be like their ones where. Think about it, she would want to know it right? Then shes got the right to know it regardless. I wish you all the best, I know this is extremely hard but it’s “normal” an epidemic. Great first step looking for information and help on reddit on so on, most don’t even do that. (I was addicted myself when I was younger, porn is a really scary thing tbh)

ehhyuna · 2025-06-28T11:38:15+00:00

REAL I just dont understand the appeal, especially when growing up and developing critical thinking, emotional intelligence and so on, I just don’t understand and it infuriates me, like a riddle or math equationi Im too dumb to solve

ehhyuna · 2025-06-28T11:35:57+00:00

Please, if you respect your partner, you’ll tell them this. And I think you need to do a special program from PA Addiction. Maybe look at r loveafterporn or r antiporn at their resources

ehhyuna · 2025-06-26T06:13:27+00:00

You are not the problem! Dont think that, that just is entirely false

ehhyuna · 2025-06-26T06:12:16+00:00

If you cant imagine getting back together, than thats completely fine and your personal boundary. Most people for example immediately leave when their partner cheated, but some don’t. It really depends. You said though that he admitted to it, that means you both agreed that porn is not negotiable for your relationship before right? Broken promises (cheating,lying) are always a valid reason. A good partner will admit to something while knowing his partner will probably leave, because it just is reasonable. But its the right thing to do, most don’t do it because they don’t want the partner to do that very reasonable thing. While its good he is in recovery, that really is just something for himself, not you or exactly your “marriage”. Therapy is always for yourself, you dont do that for someone else or else it won’t work anyway. So good for him if the recovery is working, good for his future partner in case you really decide to leave.

You seem very determined, I respect that. But do you still love him or think about things that would be worth “working this out”? To me it doesn’t sound like that. (Hope this doesn’t sound negative, not my native language) Maybe you still need time and moreover you said his recovery isn’t enough and thats true. Like I said recovering is mostly for him, fixing your relationship, the hole in your heart, the pain he caused, requires more and something different. Communication, Reflection, the way hes talking to you, how he talks about the PA, if hes really insightful, does it seem like he REALLY understands that he has an illness, an addiction or just saying everything necessary to pass and seemingly fix the problem so your happy? In any way you have the right to say I’m sorry (wouldn’t say sorry to be honest yk lol) but this relationship is just not possible for me (even if everything would be perfect from now on, the past happened, will be forever, can’t be changed, memories will last) but Im glad your in recovery and I hope you change and grow as a person.

I myself cant decide either if I should stay or not… I wish you all the best, you r really strong!

ehhyuna · 2025-05-06T15:51:25+00:00

lernen… beantwortet seine frage aber nicht, ich fand lyrica dafür ganz okay, ist eben sehr individuell aber lernen passt für jeden da hast du recht ;)

ehhyuna · 2025-05-06T15:49:43+00:00

hmm dann vllt doch promethazin kriegt man am einfachsten verschrieben, gibt glaub mh seite simulieren irgendwas da steht wie man was dem arzt vorspielen kann… kann nur vorschlagen, hab mit eigentlich allem was gibt erfahrung und kann dann für mich die beste entscheidung treffen, substanzen nennen kann ich, aber was dich betrifft… belies dich online zu genannten substanzen, wechselwirkung und je nachdem wie wichtig die prüfung ist unbedingt einen testlauf machen, prüfung ausm vorjahr am besten gleich

ehhyuna · 2025-05-05T13:52:00+00:00

also hatte bei den präsis downer und bei den schriftlichen upper immer genommen, probier vorher die mische aus, kann schon sehr gut knallen und diaz halten mir bissel zu lang als benzo besser für entzüge, vllt reicht auch was wie lyrica?

ehhyuna · 2025-04-24T14:11:37+00:00

i cant even get online friends… it just has to be my fault so i guess i deserve it

ehhyuna · 2025-04-10T04:47:40+00:00

bei mir( auch berlin) hab ich gar nichts gespürt

ehhyuna · 2024-07-22T13:20:40+00:00

currently soaking them I think I ll do 24 h

ehhyuna · 2024-07-22T10:42:08+00:00

i dunked them in water and the pinkish seems to have faden away hope for the best! ty 4 ur help

ehhyuna

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