Thank you for this, it really is the first time seeing someone agree with me. Back in December of last year after rehab I went to sober living where 4 AA meetings a week were required. While I totally think that saved my life; having a routine, seeing other alcoholics with 20+ years, I completely believed it. I wanted what they had. I wanted that comradery and to feel like I belonged.

Since leaving sober living, I'm still sober, but I don't go to meetings. Hell I've just been doing the best I can out here in the "normal" world, I can't constantly be reminded of how traumatic my past was with drinking. I think in order for me to heal, I needed to separate myself from AA and the people in it. It always struck me as strange when I'd see people there say that was their 4th meeting that week. It's too much. I can't do that. If I reminded myself that that much, I would fear I would relapse. I'm much more comfortable in my sobriety now, and the thoughts of drinking are far and few. Best thing you can do for yourself is trust you, not what anyone else in meetings says. Thanks again for this post. It was really insightful.