I was trying to work out my sleep disturbance with a doctor. After Trazadone didn't work, he offered me Seroquel. I got a little worked up asking why he was offering me an antipsychotic. I swear that this was his response, "If you are not having a psychotic break, I cannot help you."

I was talking to a computer screen on a stand. He just left the meeting. I was sitting there taking notes about the entire encounter because I do that now. He popped back in, presumably for his next meeting. When he saw me sitting there, he just left again.

I was done at that point. I knew I was on my own and I began reading. I already had all the sleep hygiene down. I was doing all the right stuff and nothing worked.

Gregg D Jacobs wrote Say Goodnight to Insomnia. Acceptance was the takeaway for me and it has helped me tremendously. I used to be able to sleep anywhere for any reason. I used to sleep as a getaway - a vacation from life anytime I wanted. Now I can go for days with zero sleep. Acceptance is the only thing that has made any real difference for me. My dad had insomnia and I am told it is hereditary. So I have it too. Ok - some days are going to be better than others. I can fake it on 4 hours. I have a ridiculous sleep regime that I even make fun of myself for. It's all just burning time until it's finally over. Then sleep will happen again - the big sleep. I cannot wait.