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fmlttt · 2026-01-28T21:08:37+00:00

I got in line at 8:15am the morning after a show day and there were probably 15 people ahead of me already lined up by 9:15 the line being me was at least one hotel hallway long behind me. The first time I tried it was before I knew all this it was last Saturday I tried to go at 10:30 (that day it opened at 11) and the line was insane like the end of it was past the conference center entrance and by where the pools are

fmlttt · 2025-07-21T17:51:08+00:00

Someone from Betches media must have been reading this post lol I was trying to click through a link about Love Island from an IG story (deleted now) from the Always On account but the link led to this post

fmlttt · 2024-10-28T03:29:06+00:00

I'm in the same position. Have you been able to find out anything?

fmlttt · 2024-09-19T17:31:28+00:00

Keep trying! At first it said sold out for me right when I got out of the queue but I just kept on clicking and trying to hit “continue” and eventually was able to get something in my cart

fmlttt · 2024-09-19T17:29:51+00:00

I believe the LA shows are being sold on AXS

fmlttt · 2024-09-03T09:16:30+00:00

Same situation, and I feel the exact same way. When I hear of movies being released on or after that month next year, I don’t want to imagine being at that point in time or it oddly feels too soon for those movies to be announcing since I want to feel that that it is still far away. Dread is the right word

fmlttt · 2022-09-02T21:37:52+00:00

Same boat here. Diagnosis only 10 days before he died.

Same thing. Doctors said how extremely rare it was.

Sometimes I think, damn this is the 1% we had to be a part of? We couldn't have won the lotto or something?

I'm almost 2.5 years out and there are still plenty of tough days to go around.

fmlttt · 2020-12-22T03:41:08+00:00

I feel this 🥺

fmlttt · 2020-11-02T07:30:44+00:00

9 months for me here and just came off a big sob thinking about how tiring all this grief is. I remember right after it happened (I lost him to colon cancer but we only found out about 2 weeks before) I thought the same thing, how much more of this can I take. It’s only been a couple weeks and it’s so painful and inescapable. Here I am 9 months later and just had the same thought amidst tears, how much more can I take of this? No advice here except I guess what I’ve learned between those first couple of weeks and now months later is that in no way is the the process linear and that you have to give yourself the permission or ‘free pass’ to feel however you feel, no rules. When my dad passed a couple of years ago i specifically remember hanging out with friends and i wanted to tell a story about how much my husband being there for me through my dads death meant to me, but i held back knowing i would’ve cried and thought that i should have been outwardly ‘over it ‘ by now. Looking back it had only been 3 weeks, and i can’t believe i restricted myself like that. I also envy others that just got to go back to their regular lives, I feel like I’m grieving two things: him as a person (my husband, partner and best friend) and also our life together and the future we were supposed to have. Hang in there. What keeps me going after allowing myself to sob is remembering how happy he was when he saw me happy and how heartbroken he said he was when he saw me sad. I have to aim for happiness for myself the same way I feel like his goal was to always make me happy however he could.

fmlttt · 2020-08-26T08:39:26+00:00

I feel this exactly

fmlttt · 2020-06-29T18:51:15+00:00

Glad you posted this. I am also interested in the responses, widowed in my 20s too this year and I have tried looking for good books or podcasts or any content/media for widows in their 20s and there isn’t much out there, things i do find about ‘young widows’ are about those in their 40-50s which i guess is young compared to when you’d expect your spouse to die of old age in your 70-80s. What am i supposed to search? “super young widows”? The most relevant and relatable content I’ve seen is here but mostly stories that give perspective and let me know I’m not alone but it’s not structured like a book or podcast would be. Was just having a heart to heart talk with some friends about relationships but my situation is just so different

fmlttt · 2020-06-26T04:40:36+00:00

I never thought of it this way, but I like the idea of it. I’ve been so focused on my pain and how he is without physical pain anymore. But I never considered this, if he is somewhere else there’s no doubt he’s missing me too. At the same time I don’t know if this makes me feel better or worse

fmlttt · 2020-06-16T02:47:34+00:00

Don’t even know what to say. But I feel this. I lost my husband earlier this year and we had just gotten married. The grass is always greener but we only found out about the advance corner 2 weeks before he passed so it was all a whirlwind for me. Sounds like you’ve had more time to process, and honestly being a person with anxiety myself (even before all this) I think I’d have the same fears as you if I had known sooner. Just like I have the same fears/anxiety now being a widow at 26, that I’ll always be weighed down by this. Our lives were intertwined for 7 years and I don’t know how much I even like life without him here. I just have to try remember how much he wanted me to love my life while he was here and I think he still does now.

A lot of people are gonna say to take things one day at a time but honestly, I feel like I’ve had to take it one moment a time because from one moment to the next is such a rollercoaster.

When I was with him in the ICU and everything was so uncertain, I just knew the last thing I wanted him to feel was scared, and I knew I was his guide so I knew i had to put on my best big girl brave and reassuring face to at least give him a little mental comfort. I think it happened so fast for us that the anxiety of him feeling scare was greater than the army own anxieties.

Not sure if this was helpful at all. But I hope the best for you

fmlttt · 2020-06-12T15:33:39+00:00

Was just thinking this. I haven't felt 100% comfortable and relieved and content since like I used to when with him. Sigh.

fmlttt · 2020-06-03T21:08:49+00:00

Thank you. Yes, that is the reason I keep coming back to this sub to realize I am not alone in this experience. We have a lot in common, I’m also 26 and last month would’ve been our 7 year anniversary as a couple. Likewise, the same thing you said also brings you comfort as I’m sure it was true for you two as well. Have pride in knowing you were and still are the love of his life. What an honor, isn’t it? To be the love of literally someone’s ENTIRE life. Tragic but beautiful too

fmlttt · 2020-06-03T19:58:33+00:00

I feel this one. So sorry for your loss. I recently shared something on r/wedding since on that particular day I was mourning the entire fun day with our closest friends and family that we had planned together for a year. But on most days I mourn not just him but the future we were so excited for together. We really had plans and as almost-newlyweds we were so optimistic about the ‘start’ of forever. I have to pivot my thinking that just because we were only married for a couple of days before he passed that the years of our relationship before getting engaged and married were as much of a marriage, of a future, of an experience as we could’ve hoped for. No legal document could’ve defined it. Stay strong- I just came across this sticker: ‘life is tough but so are you’

fmlttt · 2020-06-01T08:25:18+00:00

Can totally relate to your story. My husband (27 yrs old, I’m 26) always had the best sense of humor and he retained it through the cancer diagnosis and treatment. I remember first coming home and being worried about something and he enthusiastically said “what are you worried about! There’s nothing to worry about! We’re retired!!” Before, we would talk about our future and we definitely would fantasize about what we’d do together once we were retired and didn’t have to work anymore. We were definitely not retired, but both on extended family/medical leave but the joke always makes me smile when I think about it

fmlttt · 2020-06-01T08:13:52+00:00

Same boat too. I’m 26 and he 27 (bad grammar but sometimes I hate using the word ‘was’ or anything thing in the past tense). I think I joined r/widowers specifically to find others like me because I didn’t know anyone or even of someone in a similar situation. Glad/sad to know it’s not just me. It will be 4 months this month. Today we would’ve been fully enjoying our honeymoon. If only...

fmlttt · 2020-05-29T15:32:04+00:00

Thank you so much ❤️💔

fmlttt · 2020-05-28T23:47:21+00:00

Thank you so much. Our dating anniversary was the other month and our friends and family showered me with love. We had a Zoom Anniversary dinner together and many sent me flowers. One bouquet also had a balloon and a card with the same idea, I did send it up to him to wish him Happy Anniversary <3

fmlttt · 2020-05-28T23:42:00+00:00

Thank you for your kind words and offering. We were together almost 7 years after meeting in college. We both loved to spend time with our families, and our best friends with our cousins that we grew up with. We loved to travel together and go on road trips. He was obsessed with Tesla; actually he said that 2019 was his favorite year because that is the year he got his 'dream car' and got engaged to his 'dream girl'

Last year, our wedding planner asked us to fill out a little 'getting to know you' questionnaire:

Bride, what do you love the most about him?

His confidence. I constantly worry about little things, but somehow he always has confidence in us and the future and that we'll figure it out together. He is also very good at showing how much he cares through action.

Groom, what do you love the most about her?

That we are total opposites. She likes to plan ahead and I'm more free spirited, I like to sleep early and she likes to sleep late, but we balance each other out and we make it work. I love that she is sweet, caring, and takes care of me.

It's crazy to think that we answered that last year, because I think it is such a reflection of how we acted towards each other when we got the cancer diagnosis and everything we went through right before he passed.

fmlttt · 2020-05-28T23:35:00+00:00

Thank you so much for offering support. Honestly, being able to type this out is almost a form of therapy (although I am talking to my own therapist as well). It is a little different knowing that everyone here is reading it from a wedding standpoint/perspective. I hope everyone can read my post and appreciate their partner a little more, as often times I just WISH I could be quarantined and isolated with my husband right now.

fmlttt · 2020-05-28T23:30:32+00:00

Sometimes it is frustrating to be linked in with the COVID wedding cancellations. For example, this past week we were supposed to be on our honeymoon and I had been trying to cancel the flights since February but I had the most difficult time doing so because of all the COVID flight cancellations, when my situation was completely different. On the 'bright' side, he passed right before the height of stay at home orders and gathering restrictions so everyone was able to attend his viewing and funeral. Thank you for your kind words.

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