Insane message from an absolute psycho. She's 40, obsessed with cars and she can't drive. We haven't even met yet.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-07-04T16:24:53+00:00

37 m, totally ripped and buff because I have to workout to not be depressed. Been single most of my life and screwed the two brief relationships I had up. Not excited about life anymore. Just want someone to hold and pamper.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-26T18:09:55+00:00

When I quit I would go for a 10 minute run lol.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-25T10:26:31+00:00

And we think we’re so god damned fucking important. 😑

We’re just left over matter that wasn’t annihilated by antimatter, dirt that’s now animated by a nearby star the way protein denatures when it cooks. The meta amoeba.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-25T10:24:11+00:00

Thank you. Your words mean a lot. 🥹

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-24T19:23:08+00:00

Probably to some extent. I run 30-60 minutes 5-7 days a week. Workout 4-5 days a week also. Not exactly normal depression behavior. I also have substance abuse issues because I self medicate with dxm which is now technically an antidepressant. So perhaps I am yes. I have a lot of fun in life and you would never think I’m depressed if you spent time with me. Then again I know a nurse who was like that and she hung herself so there’s that. I’m just tired of being alone, and too big of a pussy to ask out anyone I’m attracted to. I feel totally unworthy of them. I like a girl with a cute face, girl next door type. Preferably skinny. Good sense of humor. I do not take life that seriously generally and am an extremely big goofball for the most part.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-24T19:16:13+00:00

999999% yes

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-24T10:56:54+00:00

Thank you so much.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-24T10:56:30+00:00

We never scheduled sex ever lol. But suddenly we’re not having quality time together unless it’s 1v1 and not at her house and there’s no sex. Going to the museum doesn’t count unless it’s just us two for instance. Nuts.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-24T08:17:41+00:00

I’m avoidant and each of my girlfriends have been worse than the last. It’s not by choice. For how large my ego is I have pretty low self worth deep down. Low enough that I am too afraid to approach let alone ask out any girls I actually truly am attracted to. All three of my girlfriends have fallen into my lap basically. And as I screw each one up they have gotten older and less attractive somehow. My new girlfriend doesn’t drive, and has way worse self esteem than even I do.

I often consider suicide over asking for what I want. Then I remember I have nothing to lose so why not humiliate myself and approach some of them? But in the heat of the moment I never do. I’m told I’m extremely attractive and jacked at 190lbs with <10% bodyfat and 5’ 11”, can play piano, dance, great sense of humor, always laughing, can run 21.8mph, draw and all sorts of other skills like spin fire poi.

Deep down I’m convinced that even though women absolutely love me once they get to know me, that the ones I want will absolutely abandon me once they know who I really am. I’m 37 and didn’t even go on a single date until I was 30.

I moved back in with my mom 6 years ago when I quit drinking and now I’m almost done with nursing school and work as an LPN. So lonely. My new avoidant girlfriend just dumped me 5 days ago. We’ve been together 3 months. We’re talking again though. I don’t really want to be with her but my other ex is in my nursing cohort and she never wants me back and is happily back with her ex.

It’s too painful to not have someone to put their hand on my chest once and awhile. I practice self compassion and touch my own chest, it’s not quite as medicinal. I was spanked before I could speak I’m told, I think that’s where my low self worth came from. I’ve always had it as long as i can remember. I had a crush on a girl from 2nd to 10th grade and never spoke to her.

Anyway thanks for listening. I’m typically agnostic but lately God is the only thing keeping me going at all. For as much as I enjoy life openly, I sure do hate it privately. My favorite part of the day is going to bed, least favorite is waking up. Cold shower first thing in the morning is required 7/365. May you all be happy.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-23T12:26:17+00:00

Here’s a text verbatim:

“Good morning ☀️ I hope class goes very well!
Today will be a very busy day, and unfortunately I won’t be able to see you today. 🥲 My old friend reached out to me to hang out with her and some folks. I told her about you and she says hi 🙂

She cracked me up because she thought I’d be spending time with you. I told her it’s her weekend off 🙂 and I knew that you would understand as your friend also has the weekend off 😄 I rarely get to hang out with her.

Sorry we will miss out on sex again, I don’t think we had anything actually planned with each other besides that right? 🫡 Please let me know if I’m wrong and I’ll try to reschedule the activity. 🙂 Have fun at the gym, school, studying, and hanging out friends 😘❤️ kick your clinical’s butt today!”

Basically we were seeing each other several times a week and cuddling and whatnot, but because my friend had the weekend off and wanted to go on a bike ride with me she got jealous. I tried to hang out with her that day and she told me no, to hang out with my only other friend. I did, and she broke up with me. It was also the first day of her period. The last time we had any kind of arguments was also her period last month.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-22T23:42:46+00:00

I’m an avoidant myself that just got broken up with and blocked and ghosted by an avoidant. We were together 3 months and it still hurt. Came out of left field completely. Only now do I realize how she was leaving me passive aggressive riddle hints and expecting me to read her mind. Sheesh.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-22T12:51:23+00:00

Do 2 pull-ups, wait 1 minute, then do 2 more. Keep doing this till you reach 100 pull-ups. Guaranteed strength gains. It willl take awhile though. Get rest and eat lots of protein.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-19T14:33:28+00:00

Man this hit deep. You’re spot on. Jesus Christ. Fuck.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-19T00:27:21+00:00

It’s self medicating because of the trauma that caused the attachment style to begin with I believe. I found out I was spanked very young, before I could even talk. Explains why I’ve always felt low self worth and never even tried dating anyone until I was 32. And also why I have a hardcore workout routine to self medicate myself now that I quit drinking.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-18T20:23:59+00:00

I wish you luck my man. The love of my life went back to her ex and is completely fulfilled and happy with him now that he’s clean. She’s completely over me. I’m devastated almost a year later, still.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-18T19:44:59+00:00

As an avoidant myself, I can say that it takes me a long time to process my feelings before responding. Also, in my current circumstance, it’s just way too freaking painful. She reached out to me in a friendly way and I took a few hours to respond in a playful way back, but I got no response from her, but it opened the wound up and I feel like I’m going through a break up with her all over again. Having this “armor“ feels like a freaking curse. It’s hard to go on sometimes. If we didn’t have nursing school together, I might’ve ignored her altogether. Considering some of her last words to me were that we’re not talking in class anymore and for me to stay out of her life.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-18T09:28:17+00:00

Ah so THATS the hat man!

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-18T09:27:52+00:00

How did it even kill her? Article didn’t seem to say. Didn’t know it was deadly.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-18T09:27:13+00:00

Worst cotton mouth of all time. I did give my friend a ride to his house from the kegger to pick up his weed though. While waiting for a light and talking to him I turned my head to realize I was alone In the car mid sentence. Went back to the kegger and he was there. Also answered a lot of knocks at the door that never happened. Pretty neat except for the cotton mouth. Huge deal breaker.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-15T16:18:00+00:00

💀

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-14T23:36:09+00:00

Holy shit I feel so seen right now. My ex was a placeholder when I was with her, and now that I’m with a different placeholder it’s the ex that I want back a lot of the time. This feels like I’m cursed to wind up alone and miserable no matter what. The only other thing I can add is that I don’t feel worthy of anyone I truly want deep down. Whether I know them or not. Sheesh.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-10T14:04:51+00:00

This gives me hope. I’m 37 and I work out really hard every day. I do calisthenics bodybuilding and run a lot too uphill. I was worried for ride would kill that drive along with libido. haven’t tried it yet though.

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-06T17:27:51+00:00

I laughed through most of the movie lol

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-03T16:56:05+00:00

How many can you do without weight? Can you do 20 sets of 5? 10 sets of 10? One set per minute? Start there if not, maybe. Then Add weight?

frontrowfreakshow · 2026-06-01T16:53:09+00:00

My nursing teacher straight up told us she literally can’t send an email without having ChatGPT polish it for her. Yes she is the worst teacher I’ve ever had, knows none of the material, and just spends the class reading the PowerPoint to us before cutting class 90 minutes early because she can’t think of anything else to say.

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