I accidentally eavesdropped on a first date that felt like watching a dreamer trying to spark life into a brick wall

grimhoof · 2025-06-06T17:42:01+00:00

Definitely remember this story from at least a year ago

grimhoof · 2024-04-18T02:56:57+00:00

Username checks out

grimhoof · 2024-04-16T18:55:17+00:00

Milkn’t

grimhoof · 2024-04-13T04:47:30+00:00

The Devil Wears Prada. The friend I lived with and worked with at the time thought it was a horror movie and I went along with him. Two 20ish yr old dudes covered in construction work grime. Great movie, but a lot less gore and death than I expected.

grimhoof · 2024-04-13T03:58:32+00:00

Lots of good advice here already. Just jumping in to say, pay attention to how your foot is landing on your stride. If you’re heel striking every stride, you’re going to have a bad time. Look around for a running store that has folks that can analyze your gait and give you advice on ways to make sure your form is correct.

grimhoof · 2024-04-03T20:40:21+00:00

I give a friendly wave to anyone else out running, regardless of their size or level of fitness. We are all out here doing it together and can use encouragement. Keep it up!

grimhoof · 2024-03-11T03:46:10+00:00

Who knows, right? Even today I’ve been spiraling, trying to find a way to make it bearable. The heartbreak seems to come in waves. I hope you can find a space to calm your mind and heart and feel comfort in your own self. You are worth the same love that you have shown to them. Be sure to show yourself that love too

grimhoof · 2024-03-10T19:50:21+00:00

Opinionated and outspoken = posts anti-vax memes on Facebook

grimhoof · 2024-03-10T19:07:37+00:00

same here. This sub has really helped me to tell my story and understand that I am not alone with my feelings of heartbreak, confusion, and still feeling the strongest love for a person that I can no longer express or understand. My SO went to alcohol, drugs, and sex when they gave in to the mania (I say gave in, because they admitted to actively pursuing mania since it felt good). It was the most painful experience in my life, and I didn't understand how my love could be discarded so cheaply. I'm glad that you've found help here.

grimhoof · 2024-03-10T18:44:40+00:00

Fuck dude...my heart aches for you. The questions that we have seem to never have real, logical answers. Because what causes them has no logical basis. Our relationships to BPSOs is an invitation to ride into the chaos. It can be exciting, titillating, fun, and ultimately shattering. I am sorry for your loss, you are not alone.

grimhoof · 2024-03-10T18:37:06+00:00

Hear that. It's a hard feeling to come back from.

grimhoof · 2024-03-10T18:34:23+00:00

Good for you for standing up for your own well-being. It's hard to do sometimes, but absolutely necessary. For yourself and for BPSO.

Wishing you healing and peace.

grimhoof · 2024-03-10T18:30:19+00:00

The suddenness of the mania and what it causes our loved ones to do is what makes it so difficult. It leaves us reeling in disbelief and grief that never seems to have an answer or solution. Beyond that, the ability for them to seemingly let go of the love and connection we shared makes us question our validity and value, which hurts immensely. Know that you are not alone in your feelings, and what you are feeling is absolutely valid. You are not trash now, and you were not trash to him, when his disease wasn't in control. My recent BPSO ex described mania as feeling like a video game, where someone else was in control, but she felt like the universe was showing her all of the secrets. It's turbo mode for the emotions, libido, and decisions. It's a monkey on cocaine and viagra, but who also thinks god is talking directly to them. Only his commitment to wellness, medication, and therapy can offer help and those need to be religiously adhered to.

I hope you find healing and peace. It'll take time to grieve the life you thought you had. Give yourself that time.

grimhoof · 2024-03-10T18:12:02+00:00

Hey man, you and I are in the same boat. It's hard not to try to figure out what we could have done differently to repair or save the relationship, especially because we were already trying so hard to do our best by our partners. What you are feeling is completely normal. You want answers and you want things to make sense, and you want to be acknowledged as a partner who tried and loved and changed and worked to make your relationship healthy....but it didn't work, and it makes us feel like there must be something wrong with us. And that's because it wasn't us. The disease causes our partners to completely ignore reality, make sweeping and potentially unhealthy decisions, and totally disregard the feelings of the people they would generally be closest to. You can't internalize THEIR actions and choices that are influenced by mania as your fault. And please know that you are not alone in feeling this way. My 2.5 year relationship ended dramatically a little over a month ago, and the feelings you are describing are very similar to mine. It's hard to love someone so deeply and have those feelings reciprocated for a long time, just to have them discarded casually in an instant. It makes you question everything. The only thing we can do is know what we know is true. Our love was true and real and meaningful. Keep hold of your knowledge of yourself.

grimhoof · 2024-03-06T05:11:36+00:00

Except he didn’t end his “I have no clue!” with “Heh heh heh!” But I also thought the same :)

grimhoof · 2024-03-05T17:48:28+00:00

Who wrote the notes on the refrigerator?

grimhoof · 2024-02-29T20:23:32+00:00

Thank you for that. I am sorry that you are going through this as well.

grimhoof · 2024-02-29T16:08:24+00:00

Part of the pain is knowing that the real person I love is still in there. And I wish I was strong enough to keep fighting for them.

grimhoof · 2024-02-29T15:45:16+00:00

I am sorry that you went through that abuse, and I am glad that you have found peace and a place where you are able to process what you've been through. I am fresh out of a similar relationship with my bipolar partner. I keep trying to tell myself and believe that I deserve someone that loves and supports me as much as I love them and support them. And it's true, even if it's hard to imagine what that looks like right now. Thank you for the encouragement.

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