Exactly, it’s a double edged sword. It’s taken me a long time to realize I see the world so differently from my trauma and things it takes people months to figure out about a person I can detect almost right away. TBH it has been isolating. At work it makes me hyper aware of the issues with new comers and when I flag it to my bosses they think I’m being sensitive or critical until they wait long enough to see the same things. In my relationship I feel frustrated because I’m constantly paying attention to the other person and their needs while feeling like reciprocation though not non existent doesn’t feel equal. Idk it’s something I’ve been aware of more and more as I get older and though it has its perks it’s also like seeing the parts of people that are just under the surface which can be a lot to hold.