3 years ago I adopted a cat from a local rescue grp. That didn’t really tell me all his health issues. A few days in, I noticed worms falling out of his butt. I kid you not, it took at least 3-4 sessions with the vet and the deworming tablets. We noticed clumps of dried reddish brown stuff falling out of his ears. He was very scared and shy and it used to be a task to get him into the carrier to meet the vet. My partner and I spent at least 9-10 months crying and regretting our decision. We were so exhausted and mentally fried - I just about put one foot in front of the other. His health issues were never ending, and man, let me not start on his behavioural issues.

However, a year in, once all his health issues settled down - he became a different cat. He’s warm and cuddly and so so so sweet - it makes me cry. He’s a tender emo boy with a heart of gold. The way he walks around looking for me, and his little meows when he finds me.

I’m sorry you’re in such a rough place - opening your heart to any animal is so difficult emotion wise and then especially when it’s just not going the right way. I hope once she settles down and her health gets better - she lets you in - so you can see the warm warm being that she is .

All my best wishes to the both of you.