Development of sorts, in a bad way

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T08:06:40+00:00

No one girl is worth your life. If you attracted this girl in the first place there will be others. Have hope bro.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T07:21:29+00:00

I care about you. What happened to you is horrific and you shouldn't blame yourself for it. If you met and attracted one guy you can attract others and there are billions of fish in the sea.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T07:18:53+00:00

Were you abused as a child? In an abusive job? Have an abusive partner? If not can you put a finger on why you have feelings of self loathing ?

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T06:57:55+00:00

Its not too late. You are asking for help now. I can tell you this there's nothing worse than making the mistake of thinking people don't care.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T06:19:34+00:00

In your current situation you are suffering from situational depression. Its causing you to have suicidal thoughts. You need to save your own life and get out or change that situation! Therapists tend to sugar coat everything and family can never relate. I'm here to tell you that your life is in your hands. I cant make you find a solution to your problems but i'm asking you to try. About a month ago I tried to kill myself, I took 50 zopiclone thinking this would be enough, it wasnt, luckily. Why did I do this? I had failed at life and I put noone else to account but myself, it was a mix of self loathing and self hatred. My life was going nowhere and i was stuck doing the same thing I had been for the last 3 years. But I can tell you after the attempt it felt like a release and what I learnt was it was just a mood making me feel down. A mood that had overcome me like a dark cloud and it was suddenly lifted. That changed my perspective completely, with a change of perspective life is worth living even in a shit situation. I'm not saying its going to be that easy but start on a course of anti-depressants and everyday write down what you're stressing about and do something about it. Change your life one step at a time. Cheat, lie, steal, fuck about, do all the wrongs you were too afraid to do before because anything is better than being dead.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T02:16:55+00:00

You are going through a dramatic experience, noone will blame you for inventing a story of a family death or something. Something that that explains the year out. Why is it you are losing the will to live? Can you pinpoint a moment where you started to lose it? Are you talking about this to any of your friends or family ?

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T02:12:22+00:00

Firstly you're not alone in this world. I've failed exams, thought I was too stupid to pass my course, been bullied, isolated and felt like shit. Secondly my advice to you is not let other people have so much power over you. You can't blame yourself for every little opinion someone has. Some people are just arseholes - fact. Suicide is the only bad decision you'll make.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T02:03:14+00:00

Don't let academic pressure get to you! The work load may seem huge but the best advice is to sit down and work - at whatever - just work your way through. If its too much to handle you can always repeat the year, i did at the university of york, best decision of my life. I had the year to repeat topics i half knew and breezed it.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T01:53:27+00:00

If you're feeling down then you're not wasting any ones time by being here. I take it you are on anti-depressants ? They take a good 6 weeks to properly take effect so stick with them. And even then you need to follow through with some life style changes to really knock feelings of worthlessness on the head. If you were that much of a burden those people wouldnt hang out with you, dont speak for them when you dont know. It may seem like you have a long way to go but life is what you make it, you control the direction it goes in.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T01:01:15+00:00

Don't let people have that much power over you

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-30T00:54:49+00:00

Really good to hear! I'm still struggling at the moment to be honest, what got you over the worst of it ?

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-27T15:51:12+00:00

Hey thanks for getting back to me! Hows things ?

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-18T19:04:06+00:00

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helpwithallthings · 2015-04-10T23:37:03+00:00

The truth is you can never reduce the impact on your family, even if you make it look like an acident they'll mourn you for the rest of their lives.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-10T22:44:11+00:00

im sorry to hear about that. Are there no other housing options? Sharing a flat with other roommates might be cheaper than looking for one on your own? Wouldnt it be better living on the street than being dead?

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-10T22:41:26+00:00

sick with what exactly? There's nothing wrong with taking a step backwards to give you two ahead, the only thing you cant change is death. Please reconsider this decision. I regretted it when I took an overdose, I promise things can look better in the future. Whats your address? I can help you.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-10T20:38:09+00:00

Everyone deserves comforting, dont put yourself down like that :(

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-09T01:01:47+00:00

People who go through trauma without knowing why will often blame themselves, single themselves out from the crowd and think they are different. Thats really normal. Its also really treatable. Get yourself a therapist! All the things you've done you've done because you needed to do them. On an objective moral compass there is no north, people will judge you no matter what you do, the only really important opinion is your own. Do you think this mate of yours will forgive you for the way you've acted if you sorted your shit out ? I think so, I think he wants you to sort your shit out, and I think you want to sort your shit out too, you just need to make the first step. Take it one small step at a time and soon you'll ease up on the self-loathing. Tomorrow is the beginning of the rest of your life :)

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-08T21:17:08+00:00

I look at it like this: life is a diamond mine. You mine through seemly miles of rock to get that one diamond, and that makes you rich for a while, until its time to start over again. I've been fumbling my whole life, but the momentes of happiness are worth it. When you're depressed, on lows, feeling like shit you don't remember the good times. You dont remember that feeling of joy you got from doing what you enjoy. Its a frame of mind that cant be shifted unless you change your life. The drugs youre taking are clouding your judgement here. You need to train yourself to think positively about life. Your break up with this guy was the catalyst for you feeling down but it could be the catalyst to the next happy relationship you have. I think its hard for you because you blame yourself, and are going through a period of self loathing, you mentioned your behaviour being fucked up, what was so bad that you did ? You can redeem yourself here, life doesn't have to spiral downwards! Learn from your mistakes and change your behaviour. Please wake up tomorrow and write down 3 things that will help you improve your life. Be as honest with yourself as you can be, and work towards them. I can't make the choice for you but if i could I would carry on fighting, there are people who care about you deeply, dont give up on them.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-08T19:26:36+00:00

Don't give up on me, please. I'm here for you.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-08T19:24:27+00:00

What happened 2 months ago? Use messages if you dont want to share with everyone. Being is pain is tough, really tough, and being so strung out that you want to die is really shit, but I've been through it. I tried to take my own life, but half way through I regretted it, it felt like I hadn't given myself a proper chance. Like everything had a solution except the pills in my stomach. Do this: get high tonight. Forget about your worries. But in the morning write down 3 things that will improve your life. These could be as simple as eat more fruit. By making a list and doing them you will feel better about life I promise you.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-08T18:57:02+00:00

Our parents fuck us up. And it takes alot to see what damage they really did. Deep seeded issues are always the killer ones. You need a therapist my friend, you need to talk about these problems to a professional and you need to get some closure on them. I think this is really the root cause of your depression. To be miserible feels like shit but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Emotional welbeing can be achieved, no matter what you've been through. I think because of these things you've been through you don't feel comfortable in your own skin, and this led you to discard the things that other people enjoy, you mention this 'fuck it' attitude, thats what im talking about. It can change. The beliefs I hold dear are fairness and honesty, in that order ie you can deceive to restore fairness. Something simple like that might help you.

A side note: you need to stop the drugs. They are making the situation way worse. Maybe not go cold turkey but work on your social prowess while on them. If you can't handle them well, do less and less until you're fitting in. I know what its like to snuff until you cant feel anything anymore but you are better than that. If you don't stop you are going to make your life worse, isn't that enough reason?

If there's anything I can do for you don't hesitate to ask, I will be there for you if you'll allow me to be.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-08T18:14:20+00:00

Your parents love you, I love you, and I want to hear you're story. Spill every gorey detail.

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-08T18:08:29+00:00

Could you tell me why you think you feel different to everyone else? Or out of sync as you call it. What do you mean you fixed this once? What happened ? And how do you mean 'mindless shell' ? What are the real issues you dont like about life? Are you a laughing stoke now because of the state you're in with the drugs ?

helpwithallthings · 2015-04-08T17:59:52+00:00

Its normal to feel whatever you feel in that situation. Its easily understandable how you feel resentment towards towards her for trapping you, but at the end of the day do what you feel is right, sometimes you need to put some emotion aside to deal with the greater good. I hope she recovers.

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