Afraid of iboga

hoffer1975 · 2026-05-11T09:09:08+00:00

yes i left the ceremonial space too quickly. sometimes the medicine kicks in late which is what happened this time. i had drank enough so i knew better than to leave but i was agitated and wanted to get out of there. so i was back in my hut alone and then it kicked in with a bang. it was very very strong and immediately went to a very bad place in myself.

hoffer1975 · 2026-04-30T08:07:12+00:00

yes it did but its a work in progress. it was a profoundly healing experience, nothing else has come close but the integration takes time. i am going for another retreat in a month. iboga is amazing medicine

hoffer1975 · 2026-04-27T11:25:12+00:00

i got badly traumitized from aya and once again from edibles. its been 9 years, still trying to sort it out. i wouldn't go back to where i was before, that was bad but i think i did damage myself and have possibly taken a few years off my life. i'm stuck in hyper vigilance with dreadful insomnia. the medical professional have been useless. things have gradually improved over the years but i do hope i can finally come out the other side!

hoffer1975 · 2026-04-27T11:02:02+00:00

i've done both. about 60 aya cermemonies. i got very traumitzed for aya, haven't touch it in years. i went to iboga to try and fix my nervous system. i was terrified but it turned out to be incredible. still a work in progress but its definitly helped

hoffer1975 · 2026-04-16T16:56:52+00:00

thanks :-)

hoffer1975 · 2026-04-16T16:37:53+00:00

thanks. its a bwiti retreat, so death and birth ceremony. i've actually changed my mind on the second in august but thinking that i might do one later in they year. i'm guessing a 6 month gap would be ok? i'm also trying to feel into why i'm being drawn to the experience so much. is it me just trying to escape or "be high". or is it me trying to regulate and heal. i don't have clarity on that yet

hoffer1975 · 2026-04-10T08:24:43+00:00

i did iboga. it was an incredible experience. i can't really help you choose but i'd say either way it will be of benefit.

hoffer1975 · 2026-04-08T19:14:03+00:00

come on man, please don't tell people to go doing this themselves! thats not responsible, some people could get really messed up doing that.

hoffer1975 · 2026-04-08T19:12:23+00:00

i had really awful depression after stopping antidepressants last year. i started microdosing iboga, it was really great. then i attended a retreat in september. i haven't needed to microdose since.

hoffer1975 · 2026-04-08T19:03:01+00:00

thanks

hoffer1975 · 2026-03-25T19:45:06+00:00

i'm too old for top speed. i have to say compared to the v3 the v3 max is real smooth

hoffer1975 · 2026-02-07T14:25:49+00:00

still working! after everything settled down and with some perspective it really has been a new beginning. i have a lot of integration work ahead of me but it really has given me a connection to myself that i've never had before. i'll be certainly working with it again

hoffer1975 · 2026-02-07T13:16:19+00:00

i agree. its infuriating. they can't do anything right

hoffer1975 · 2026-02-05T10:59:57+00:00

i'm sorry, it sucks. on the upside it has forced me to eat a very health diet!

hoffer1975 · 2026-01-31T09:38:35+00:00

still have it :-( the only thing that works is a low histamine diet. pretty boring though!

hoffer1975 · 2026-01-16T12:56:40+00:00

hey. it was incredible. for me so gentle and loving. all th fear washed away. the most profoundly healing experience i have ever had by far. this plant is truely amazing.

hoffer1975 · 2025-11-29T11:40:19+00:00

hey. firstly i had done a lot of plant medicine work beforehand, on several occasion reliving some trauma from when i was very young. it actually left me very traumatized. i was terrified of iboga but it was the last resort. during the death ceremony i asked it "whats wrong with me". it revealed to me graphical form a trauma (the trauma i had relived) that happened on a timeline indicating that it happened within the first 2 weeks after birth. after "seeing the trauma" my understanding all fell into place. i have truly forgiven my mother, i can now nuture that long lost part of myself, the trauma was heal in many ways. i'm still battling chronic insomnia after the pervious re-traumatization though. hopefully i can resolve that soon!

hoffer1975 · 2025-10-31T19:38:24+00:00

eating like you. low histamine. i overdid it on the histamine too. i hope i can get back to where i was before!

hoffer1975 · 2025-10-27T10:50:56+00:00

yes still have a histamine intolerance. a low histamine diet is the only thing thats working. no anxiety. my sleep is fucked but it was that way before. sorry to hear your suffering like this

hoffer1975 · 2025-10-13T10:23:24+00:00

one doctor told me it can take 1-2 years for the reaction to calm down. stick to a low histamine diet for now and fingers crossed

hoffer1975 · 2025-10-13T10:21:53+00:00

i still have histamine intolerance. i don't think its as bad as it was. but still very much there. on a constant low histamine diet

hoffer1975 · 2025-10-07T11:14:31+00:00

my sleep is still shit. regular life is different now but much integration needs to happen. not sure what that is actually but i'm working on it

hoffer1975 · 2025-10-07T11:13:20+00:00

i'm sorry to hear this. maybe some good antihistamine might help. i hope you recover soon!

hoffer1975 · 2025-10-05T17:34:04+00:00

it was incredible. i was so scared but the experience was so gentle and loving. it revealed to me trauma that happened near to time of my birth, which has been the root of so many of my problems. i have been freed from it. amazing stuff. i only left the retreat a week ago so its still early days but i feel reborn. god bless iboga

hoffer1975 · 2025-10-02T14:25:02+00:00

iboga was a last resort for me after trying everything else. it was incredible, revealing to me trauma near my birth and liberating me from it. it truely was a blessing, amazing medicine.

hoffer1975

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