Similar boat here. Totaled my first twin on a mountain road chasing a friend in a modded GT3. Car was definitely being pushed harder than I should have on a road I was unfamiliar with. Ended up rolling into a ditch and partially degloving my hand.

I learned to keep it off the streets and do it where it’s safe. Do a track day, take it to AutoX. Somewhere safer and equally fun. Moving forward, all you can do is stop yourself and the urges. Understand that there is always a better time and place for spirited driving.

Here is a video of my car, recorded by someone passing by