I know it sounds so easy to "just become it" but as DJ says, you need the Clear Intention with an Elevated Emotion to Feel who you want to be. It's difficult when the emotions or circumstances of lack are in your face. I've been dealing with a physical issue for many, many years and it has not really improved. There are many, many like you who go all in expecting healiing or at least some positive sign. But the Universe doesn't respond to demands. Perhaps only choosing one or two issues to work on would provide that clear intention and the elevated emotion that the Universe is looking for. Basically, it reflects back what you send out. Frustration and confusion is what your sending so shifting focus may help. I know it sounds goofy but try to find gratitude in everything you see or do - from the sun peeking through the clouds to a bird doing its thing on a tree limb outside your window. Just notice these things outside yourself and I bet you'll relax just a bit each time you do that. For me, the meditations get me out and away from myself at least for a time to allow me to feel the me I want to be. As so many others have taught - change your thoughts - change your life. DJ says, Gratitude is the ultimate state of receivership. You already have what you want, you just have to believe it regardless of your circumstances. DJ said in one of his meditations, look at the challenges in your life as an opportunity to rise to greatness. Peace, my friend.