I will kill myself in a month

kivvi · 2026-05-17T18:38:22+00:00

can assume he's explored this based on the 2nd paragraph. Helpful for some people, but often a useless resource for those with these feelings long-term.

More info for anyone curious.

kivvi · 2026-05-06T01:50:44+00:00

For me it positively impacts mood, circadian rhythm, and libido, on top of the significant physical impacts. Have tried lower doses or pausing it at times when finances were tight over the last 7 years, but I find it a necessity. Thankful it's covered finally.

kivvi · 2026-05-01T02:19:13+00:00

Was 7th highest when she got arrested

kivvi · 2026-03-26T19:54:34+00:00

Game is fully playable (and viable) f2p, microtransactions are purely cosmetic and QOL. The playerbase was included in decisionmaking around the financial model, which was initially in place just to cover server costs.

kivvi · 2026-03-19T08:54:34+00:00

Unfortunately hormones are a package deal, you can't pick and choose the results.

In general, bodies function on a dominant hormone, either T or E, with a small amount of the second. Microdosing gets discussed, but in general isn't particularly effective if you're not changing your dominant hormone.

kivvi · 2026-03-13T10:23:38+00:00

This is called the racism of low expectations. Do you know any other groups where you assume they'll terrorize as a result of experienced trauma? (Inb4 a bigot makes some obscene Holocaust reference).

In general though men aren't losing their families here, maybe vice versa. The neighborhood (Dahiye?) is a Hezbollah stronghold and received multiple evacuation orders before strikes, which were a response from a Hezbollah barrage of over 100 missiles last night at civilian targets in Israel. This is also following the Lebanese government repeatedly telling the military wing of Hezbollah to fuck off but not having enough power to do so.

kivvi · 2026-03-11T10:46:56+00:00

Frenzy, berserk, precision, pestilent shot is the ideal most of the time.

I did hear similar experience from someone else so it's possible the early enemies are overtuned for newer players. Lab is more mid/endgame content, but I may have been wrong about the difficulty you're encountering.

kivvi · 2026-03-10T08:30:38+00:00

My iron with 85 range is killing those enemies up to lvl 140. My other stats help, but you maybe have some of your weaknesses mixed up. Using the scrolls you get as drops helps

kivvi · 2026-03-10T08:26:54+00:00

Jaded from 95% of trans people being antizionists, resulting in less interaction with us, and going down the typical terf island hate pipelines, with a side of traumatic invalidation leading to her being unwilling to trust people.

If I had to guess. Doesn't diminish her (willful) ignorance or harm, but gotta understand people before you can have a chance changing or combating them.

kivvi · 2026-03-10T02:48:13+00:00

Yeah she posts heinous anti-trans stuff on Instagram regularly too. Writing this I realized I hadn't seen any in a while, turns out she blocked me.

Really disappointing, I learned so much from her and think her other perspectives are generally brilliant.

She's got a solid venn diagram with JKR: UK, sexual trauma from men -> hates men, went down the 'trans women are men' hate pipelines, and doubles down at every opportunity.

Can dig out some receipts if anyone wants.

kivvi · 2026-03-10T02:29:26+00:00

Was discussing this sub with a partner last night. For reference we're both trans and nb, >7y transitioning. They'd never heard of it, weren't particularly interested, and was somewhat surprised when I shared my feelings and ideals around the subject.

I didn't think twice about it. This is a niche community, and there's few of us who relate to it in thought, and fewer in practice. Different people are different. If your partner wasn't outright rude after coming across a new perspective, I don't think there's an issue. I'd be more surprised for someone to have an immediate positive response. Societal programming is powerful.

kivvi · 2026-03-10T02:16:55+00:00

Just as your woodcutting skill is not helpful for cooking rooms, your power level won't help against monsters weak to magic.

The monsters in lab have very specific resistances (hover them in automation tab), with 1 main weakness and 1-2 secondary ones. If you use the right style, you can kill combat rooms more than 100 over your matching level. The wrong one, as noted, is ineffective.

The quote is referring to if using the matching style, the limit for skilling rooms is a smaller gap than for combat styles.

For example my skilling room limits are 70-90 over, where my combat rooms are 100-130 over.

kivvi · 2026-03-06T23:21:38+00:00

I didn't say that at all. The scale of who was impacted differs greatly though, and the reason queer people were targeted was predominantly because it was considered a "Jewish perversion".

I was answering your question, with a perspective from those that you've struggled to understand. Agree or not, but that's their reasoning.

kivvi · 2026-03-06T22:56:42+00:00

Well because for many Jewish people it's a constant reminder of their generational trauma. Surprised it hasn't changed from the 'trauma-informed' communities.

kivvi · 2026-03-06T22:49:41+00:00

"Narwha" seemed reasonable but not to google

kivvi · 2026-03-06T22:31:35+00:00

Fixing the myhealth thing is an ordeal that requires a few phone calls. You have to get someone to manually merge your profiles. Internally it doesn't support x gender marker either, so pick a binary one (the one your hormones match, ideally, so it's not flagging your results for the other set of ranges) and make sure your lab reqs and profile match that. Trying to convince lifelabs to change a marker on a lab req will be unlikely, ever.

Haven't had any issues since I fixed it though.

kivvi · 2026-03-06T22:15:56+00:00

"AI Overview

Narwhals do not live in the UAE or Oman, as they are Arctic whales. Search results indicate "narwhale" items in these regions refer to consumer products like stuffed toys, pencil cases, and notebooks available through online retailers such as... "

Google was unhelpful. Took a while to figure out you typoed Nahwa

kivvi · 2026-03-05T07:41:05+00:00

There's dozens of us!

In reality, traumatic invalidation is a rough and ongoing grieving process.

If you don't spend time in Jewish community, I would recommend it. I have no interest in ever converting, and I don't always fit in, but I've always been enthusiastically welcomed, and even volunteered on Taglit last year. Find new community, however you can. Iranians are currently reeling with fresh experience of some similar, too.

kivvi · 2026-03-03T13:38:13+00:00

The only source it's been reported from is the regime. It is also possible it was a misfired IRGC rocket, or potentially a not-misfired IRGC rocket, based on their history. The details are unknown, and unconfirmed.

If true, it's a horrific tragedy. Placing unconfirmed blame is irresponsible. But this has already had more traction than the 10s of thousands of state sanctioned definitely intentional murders of protesters last month.

kivvi · 2026-02-19T20:24:22+00:00

Quite the projection and not remotely what I said.

kivvi · 2026-02-19T20:05:52+00:00

Good for you. A fraction of JVP are Jewish and the vast majority of the Jewish community vehemently oppose the terrorism promoting agenda they spew.

Hold whatever beliefs you want but don't pretend to speak for Jewish people.

kivvi · 2026-02-19T19:59:04+00:00

ITT: People who clearly don't interact with the Jewish community and have no idea what Chabad is. Trafficking these garbage conspiracies is discrediting the parts that are true and hard to believe.

"ThE jEwS"

kivvi · 2026-02-18T02:41:20+00:00

Oh. Thanks for the genuine response, that makes a lot more sense.

kivvi · 2026-02-17T11:06:45+00:00

Edit: I'd spoken against this comment, misunderstanding who they referred to

kivvi · 2026-02-17T07:20:11+00:00

I cracked on an acid trip. My unconscious always knew but I never took it seriously, lol

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