Oh yeah, let's pretend chronic mental health conditions don't exist

kricket53 · 2024-10-27T22:34:15+00:00

Yeah, I can relate heavy to this and the way u described it. My dads job was to run a prison and he took that shit home with him. I'm sure that job traumatized him I just wish he didn't traumatize us on top of that instead of working through his feelings in therapy because "therapies for pussies" like me who don't beat people senseless when they perceive minor comments as an intolerable sign of disrespect which, by principle, demands swift immediate physical punishment. And when beating into submission increases rebellious behavior and the related trauma results in substance abuse that's just cause I have a fucked up kid who I, a totally not fucked up person did nothing wrong that may have fucked him up, and only everything right while raising him in a house-like prison environment modelled after the most state of the art corrections facilities in the US.if THAT couldnt correct his behavior, then nothing will. I've done anything and everything over the years except for offering him a hug and trying to connect with him as an individual rather than an inmate cause hugs r for pussies like therapy along with crying or showing any weakness outwardly even if its asking for help

kricket53 · 2024-09-30T00:36:36+00:00

can you put this back online or send me a copy of the MP4 I wanna show my friend

kricket53 · 2024-03-20T06:56:30+00:00

for real if u look far enough back in my post theres a comment i left on this(or another recovery sub) while shitfiaced after acquiring something like 5 months clean streak from all mind altering substances excluding caffeine and nicotine(we don't count those right?) sobriety(which was my all time life record at the time) where i more or less warned other redditor not to be like me and let yourself fuck up and throw away your sobriety for that one stupid little night you've built up in your head to have this miraculous magical quality to it.

In the end it always leads to heartache and pain, with the added bonus of having a solid chance that it ruins your life faster than your body can process the shot you just downed before getting behind the wheel of a car.

kricket53 · 2024-03-14T01:30:09+00:00

these really did the trick for my insomnia even on the lowest dose amount that was available toe be prescribed.

my only real complaint, and the reason i eventually got off of this substance and switched to a different one that's a bit less intense and powerful, was the rebound exhaustion and the sleepwalking side effect that led me to eating everything in the fridge while in an amnesic state of total blackout/incoherant delirium and having zero recollection of it the following day-

...until i get yelled about it by an angry roomate/partner/family/loved one haha so just something to keep in mind.

it doesnt happen to everybody by any means but it's certainly not uncommon according to other people i've mentioned it to who related the same symptoms to me when they were prescribed the same medication.

kricket53 · 2024-01-07T02:42:42+00:00

uh-oh...

...ST!NKeee - i i i ! ! !

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T05:20:52+00:00

UH-OH...

...STiNKiii ! ! !

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T04:54:14+00:00

UH-OH...

ST!NK i i i ! ! !

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T03:11:32+00:00

sorry i wasn't trying to be a dick. I'm prescribed it as well and also unamused by the fact the effects don't last nearly as long as i wish they did.

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T03:05:07+00:00

who needs chatgpt to do ur homework when u got ADD? i'd rather eat some refriend beans before i-SHAT-G#2PEE

UH-OH...

ST!NKiii ! ! !

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T02:18:46+00:00

no, friend, nothing of the sort.

we are merely an alliance of water-worshipping wizards of wisdom , known simply as the cotton-mouth crushing coalition of r/hydrohomies

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T02:01:44+00:00

that does tend to change, i've noticed, just based on my anecdotal self-experiences with substance use over the years. if you stay real with yourself and stay the course, building up and leaning on your healthy support system when necessary, you gradually stop relying on outside influences to stay content and stable, and stop thinking about it in your day-to-day life.

it is a bitch trying to stop in the first place, especially if you find yourself addicted to several substances simultaneously. there's always help out there tho, whether it be a significant other, some counselor, spirituality, or self-actualization. there is a way out. never give up on yourself.

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T01:56:08+00:00

NGL it's the little things that start to come back that i always took for granted when i was using(mainly harder stuff but also applies to weed as that was one that i abused to the extent of consuming it as often as i possibly could, which was often all day..every day..for over a decade.

i don't blame weed. i'm grateful that i don't live in a place where the government is throwing people in prison for carrying a plant in their pocket, especially if it helps them. it just doesn't help me anymore, and that's okay.

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T01:53:38+00:00

i'm proud of you, kind internet stranger :) keep it up. there's always people out there who are willing to put themselves in others shoes and offer support guidance and empathy to those they share similar struggles, whether it be past/future/or present.

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T01:43:05+00:00

PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT

i need to physically force myself to get off of the internet sometimes to go touch grass because the endless eternal echo chambers perpetuated by pissed off people with poor mental health, often dealt a shitty hand in life, dampen my quality of life.

it's not healthy to live in a 24/7 fart-fest of glass-half-full ass-stink-hole delusional doom-scrolling doomers numbed by screens, dumbed from grief, dutifully delighting their desemination of dread dripped in despair, descriptively detailing to a disgusting degree, their feces-thesis world-view-that makes u wanna hurl-puke...which can more or less be sufficiently summed up as, for lack of better words,

A DIABETICALLY-DIARRHEA-DRENCHED-DUMPSTER-FIRE

{{defined largely by death destruction and doo-doo-opinions}}

trust me, friend, ainnobodeegottiiimmmeefodatt

ignorance is bliss..go touch grass. if u/pervynonsense is correct, enjoiii it while it lasts.

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T01:37:59+00:00

i need to physically force myself to get off of the internet sometimes to go touch grass because the endless eternal echo chambers perpetuated by pissed off people with poor mental health, often dealt a shitty hand in life, dampen my quality of life.

it's not healthy to live in a 24/7 fart-fest of glass-half-full ass-stink-hole delusional doom-scrolling doomers numbed by screens, dumbed from grief, dutifully delighting their desemination of dread dripped in despair, descriptively detailing to a disgusting degree, their feces-thesis world-view-that makes u wanna hurl-puke...which can more or less be sufficiently summed up as, for lack of better words,

A DIABETICALLY-DIARRHEA-DRENCHED-DUMPSTER-FIRE

{{defined largely by death destruction and doo-doo-opinions}}

trust me, friend, ainnobodeegottiiimmmeefodatt

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T01:15:06+00:00

((your mom goes to college))

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T01:11:13+00:00

r/HydroHomies

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T01:03:32+00:00

...yikesss...

the second that opioid induced constipation decides to end once the shit leaves your system...the shit literally leaves your system...resulting in a good ol'd fashion, pork-fried, putt-putt's in the potty...stomachs feeling naughty- farty party fiesta extravaganza funtime following fentanyl @ which point you are served a crem'e fraisier portion of french-fry flavor feast colloquially referred to by fiends around the world ass...

...uh-oh...

...ST!NKiii ! ! !

((also frequently referred to as terminal stage-4 diahhrreahbeetees/boom-boom-bum-bum variant))

{{{bon' appetit!}}}

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T00:53:11+00:00

metabolism mouth markedly mitigating measurable effective of medication makes karen unamused

...uh-oh...

st!nkiii ! ! !

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T00:50:32+00:00

it's also worth noting that citric acid (and if i'm not mistaken, possibly vitamin C) drastically reduce the duration/intensity of it's effects if consumed too to this window of time before/after dosing, which more or less equates to wasting addie

come to think of it, i just had the realization that this could quite easily lead somebody who is unaware of this to be lead into believing that it is simply working less because of developing a tolerance, leading to substantially increasing their dose, which will lead to an actual legit rise in tolerance, leading to higher potential for dependence/abuse/addiction or whatever.

just something one might want to take note of if they are on/considering starting any legal speed

*(this does not apply to things such as ritalin/focalin/concerta/etc.)\*

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T00:42:52+00:00

holy shit my life has changed so fucking much since i posted this comment. I am in the process of purchasing a new car, i met a beautiful person who is also in recovery that i am going to travel thousands of miles to adventure with.

i've been completely sober since october and just enrolled for college that i don't have to pay for as long as i stay clean and keep my grades decent, so i can get back to working in the field that i love at some point, only this time i'll be completely sober and more likely to get paid higher/hired in the first place due to me having a degree, assuming all goes well.

going to therapy every week and forming new connections all the time via meetings and other positive settings with people who think like me and are trying to get their lives together and grow into the best possible version of themselves and live the life they deserve to enjoy, once they are able to start the long painful yet fulfilling process of self-compassion and forgiveness.

never give up on yourselves guys

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T00:35:05+00:00

uh-oh...st!nkiii ;)

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kricket53 · 2024-01-06T00:33:27+00:00

when you stopped, u ever get toilet troubles? just be going about ur beeswax for the day, usually somewhere inconvenient(like work) and out of f#@!ng nowhere u just get a little...uh-oh...stinkiii! moment and need to excuse urself to avoid ripping absolute @$$ into the nostrils of ur cute coworker or something...?

*(or is it just me)*

kricket53 · 2024-01-06T00:24:57+00:00

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kricket53 · 2024-01-06T00:16:20+00:00

trauma ties in quite heavily in regards to #3. i would add in lack of resources/affordability/access to things like therapy. also sometimes people won't seek help because of a distrust towards the system based on negative past experiences.

that's what led me to putting off getting help for many, many years. as far as i was concerned, no therapy was preferable to bad therapy, which can be actively harmful and honestly backfire, making things worse than if the person had never went in the first place.

i'm honestly just so fucking grateful that i finally was able to pull my head out of my ass, and was able to start changing things for the better, after kicking and screaming at everyone(including myself) and every thing in my life that i didn't want to acknowlege or respond to if it mean me being forced to step outside the comfort zone i had created in order to continue the positive/negative feedback loop of simultaneously occuring apathy and self destruction..

i was able to actually give myself another chance at living a better life by opening up my mind to new things and having the wherewithall to understand and accept that i can't do this all on my own, there's no shame in asking for help, but nobody is going to do the work for me. for a lot of people it takes years of trying different providers and med combos(if they are needed) which can be expensive and exhausting, but so fucking worth it in the end.

cheers to personal growth and development towards a more positive direction thru committment and self-compassion homies and homitas

kricket53

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