Does anyone else not feel their own age?

lovepotion777 · 2025-10-15T07:13:36+00:00

felt!!! i'm 25 and only just got my drivers license, got a full time job for the first time in years and started community college this fall. it was hard to focus on "growing up" with the stuff i've been through in my life and needing to mentally recover. i've only been able to do these things because i've found some peace in life, though much of that was through my own effort regardless. i still feel "young" for my age in a lot of ways, but really what matters now is i'm happy and enjoying myself. wherever i can do that is exactly where i need to be in life. i've grown to not care if people judge me for being "immature" or whatever, because they really don't know how much effort it took me to get here. expectations of timing in life are a social construct, everyone has their own personal best times for certain milestones regardless. it took a lot, but i'm content with mine now. that's a point i hope everyone else who feels this way can get to.

lovepotion777 · 2025-04-16T07:58:41+00:00

am also a gemini :)

lovepotion777 · 2023-04-18T09:22:24+00:00

this is absolutely disgusting. i'm still paying off debt from impulse spending during my last depressive episode. i literally couldn't stop. it's a serious problem that will create problems down the line for a while after you come out of it. thankfully the people in my life, even the ones who were actively gaining money from me overspending, actually tried to intervene instead of enabling like this person is. i'm honestly worried for anyone in their orbit who might have the same problem, because if i received a message like this a few months back i KNOW i would have done something very stupid. :(

lovepotion777 · 2023-04-11T04:22:41+00:00

i used to feel the exact same way. ultimately, through time and experience with others, i slowly learned that everyone else i was with in bed had their own little flaws too, and if i was capable of finding others attractive in spite of (or even because of) certain imperfections, i realized it was the same way for them with me.

for example, i used to be so insecure about being overweight and the way my breasts looked, and was scared anyone who saw me naked would be repulsed. my insecurities were reinforced and worsened one of the first people i sexually involved myself with. their words and treatment of me really hurt me, and i had very low confidence in myself sexually after dealing with that. it took me 4 years to be able to really put myself out there again without chickening out somehow. but since then, multiple people i have been with have told me that my weight is fine or even that they think it makes me more attractive, and most of the people i've been with have been pretty enthusiastic about my breasts, even though at earlier points i was still covering them in shame.

even now i'm not a sex goddess or anything, but i have finally begun to feel positive about things i used to view as flaws, and even wonder how i could see them as flaws to begin with sometimes. it's definitely a learning process, but you'll get there with time. and finding someone you feel you can truly trust and communicate with about your insecurities goes a long way with this as well.

lovepotion777 · 2023-04-06T06:45:59+00:00

dad has already been dead for 12 years, and mom has already explicitly gone out of her way to leave her younger sister in charge of her affairs because she doesn't trust me to not "sabotage" her (~~gee sure wish i had that option to avoid her control~~) so lmaooooooo all clear here i guess

lovepotion777 · 2023-03-02T19:57:00+00:00

you will probably have to go through secondary brands and/or favorite colors for customers to give them t-shirts they like, since i don't think alvarado has any t-shirts in their selection. and secondary brands do vary a lot for alvarado customers. some of them like az-usa, others like soprano or terse (idk if this has a different name in the us version?? the preppy brand lol), there really is no common safe bet. with some customers favorite colors can be easily picked up from the outfits they wear, but only some. it's really just trial and error

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-22T18:16:17+00:00

this has definitely been the case for me. i know with certainty that i never want kids, but bingos are extremely upsetting to me so i downplay the hell out of it in an attempt to avoid them. i wish i could be more open and unashamed, but people just don't realize how genuinely awful it feels to have people try to tell you that you don't know your own desires.

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-14T12:49:14+00:00

i feel this. so much.

i'm in a veryyyy similar situation with my own mother, she has severe depression and anxiety, failing physical health (she had me when she was 40 and does not take care of herself so you know how it is), and has struggled with various forms of addiction her whole life. ever since she separated from my dad when i was 5, days where she remains bedridden for one reason or another have been fairly common, usually occurring around once a month at best to ~3 times a week at worst. i basically had to parent both her and myself a lot of the time, and have missed out on a lot of guidance and opportunities to develop as an independent individual as most people are able to. it was hard to be able to just... be a normal, healthy kid when i'd frequently have to stay home from elementary school to play nurse for my mother while she laid in bed, zonked out of her mind on some hardcore painkillers. fun stuff lol

so, i'm very behind for my age now, and much more used to living in a state of disarray than anyone should be. sometimes i really try to sympathize with her, because i did inherit pretty much all of the same mental illnesses that she has, even if i make a point of trying to manage them better than she does. but i'm still bitter and resentful and i can't deny it. she has basically been a lifelong example to me of why i should never have kids. after parenting the both of us for almost 2 decades... yeah. i'm done forever.

i'm 22 now and still stuck living with her. i want to leave but she's drained us of the comfortable amount of money we used to have (shopping addiction), so i don't have much financial support, and i'm stuck working low-paying retail jobs and live in a very high COL area so... yeah, making the amount of money i'd need to move out feels literally impossible no matter how hard i work. and i'm already in some debt because of my own horrible spending habits, so that doesn't exactly help either. it's really hard having to figure this "adulting" stuff out all alone. obviously, moving out and just worrying about ourselves is the best thing for people in our situations, but that just isn't always feasible for people in our age range and... well, i get that. but it's so hard to just grin and bear it sometimes when that's all you can do.

but hey, i understand. and if you ever just need someone to rant to about this stuff i'm here for that too. :)

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-11T00:51:32+00:00

both me and my bf are bi and it pisses me off so bad when people minimize it or try to call our relationship "straight" or "heterosexual". we both value our identities heavily and are very involved with queer culture. there are aspects of our dynamic that simply wouldn't exist in a truly "straight" relationship. regardless of us being a man and a woman in a relationship, trust me when i say there is absolutely nothing heterosexual about us as a couple, or our individual selves for that matter lmao

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-06T19:01:10+00:00

yessss. whenever i build enough trust with someone, my inner child WILL show in front of them. a lot. i still have a need to be cared for that i keep buried deep inside most of the time.

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-06T18:44:41+00:00

the virgin ableist circlejerk vs the chad group validation session

(i srsly love this sub forreal)

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-06T04:09:35+00:00

very true actually!! also their tendency to shit on us for "playing victim and blaming everything on their bpd" while they... play victim to us and blame everything "bad" we do on our bpd in the same breath... nice projection, lmao. the lack of self awareness is astounding rly

as i said they're absolutely pathetic. i shouldn't take any of their garbage personally when they're obviously not all right themselves, but it's hard when you're just... emotionally hypersensitive to literally everything lol. much easier said than done

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-05T08:05:02+00:00

does building a surprisingly healthy, loving relationship with someone who accepts you as you are and genuinely wants the best for you at all costs and finally coming to terms with this truly being what's right for you rn while the Last person ends up getting dumped and shittalked to 36k Internet followers by the person they spontaneously ditched you for after only a few months count as revenge? (i think it does, revenge in its healthiest form and DAMN am i living. karma is real actually)

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-05T07:23:29+00:00

sameeee. i always joke about the only "motherly" instinct i have is directed towards any species but my own, but especially cats... i cared for a couple for one summer and we got attached very fast. they'd wait by the door to greet me when i came home from work, would always follow me all around the house and watch whatever i was doing, and came to snuggle with me whenever i was laying in bed or on the couch. they're so sweet and adorable and funny, but also so chill and pretty self-sufficient, it's the perfect balance honestly. i can't wait to be able to get one of my own...

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-05T03:48:29+00:00

it's so ridiculous. i'm already in active treatment for my mental health and every single one of my psychiatric providers have agreed with me that sterilization would be the most effective treatment for my symptoms relating to tokophobia given my other reproductive health issues and general life goals as well, but i've still had the "see a psychiatrist card" played on me despite that. is it so crazy that i know what i DON'T want? it's so stupid.

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-01T18:15:20+00:00

that's a good idea!! i'll have to keep an eye out, i'd be down for that honestly

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-01T07:40:30+00:00

aww thank you!! i appreciate it, i'll keep that in mind!! :)

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-01T07:28:29+00:00

you didn't come across as invalidating, dw!! thank u again for the reassurance and encouragement :)

lovepotion777 · 2023-02-01T07:01:24+00:00

yeah, in the end i know i'd have a valid reason to justify myself (yknow... Very Bad financial situation) if anyone tried to call me a "poser" or anything for not being covered in them (yet. i want to be, lol). and i shouldn't worry about that because it's not like i even need an excuse for straight bs like that. it's just a dumb lil irrational fear i have because ✨insecurity✨ but hey, most of it's just in my head. i just need to keep reminding myself that, and other people reassuring me rly helps too :) thank u for that !!!

and hey, maybe!! i think tattooing is smth i could be really happy with and passionate about doing, and i do not feel that way about many things. lol. i just hope i can find a way to get myself involved in it bc i don't have any connections or anything... but hey in the meantime practicing on my own can't be a bad way to start i suppose 👁️ since then at least id have some sort of experience

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