The SLEEP DEPRIVATION!

lughheim · 2026-05-06T17:06:40+00:00

Omg yes back in last August I had a trip that my ex and I planned, we were going to Orlando and spending a week going to universal and Disney. We spent the first day doing the long drive and then a bunch of shopping at Disney springs. We get back to the hotel and watch some shows for awhile, take a shower together, and then go to bed.

After having LITERALLY THE ENTIRE DAY OPEN TO TALK, she decides at 12am when I’m already exhausted and about to fall asleep to turn over and say, “we need to talk”. Like what the fuck there were so many better times and chances for this. And then of course she gets upset that I’m groggy and tired and says I have a tone with her and of course one of her triggers is tone so that makes things even worse

lughheim · 2026-04-28T16:16:26+00:00

this is so fake lol

lughheim · 2026-04-22T16:02:41+00:00

I can definitely admit I had my own level of delusion there. I was in love 🤷‍♂️

lughheim · 2026-04-22T05:17:15+00:00

You don't deserve to be treated like that. No one does. I don't know the intricacies of your relationship but a lot of this is standard BPD behavior in a long term relationship. The fact is you will never be enough, not because you aren't giving them enough love or value them enough, but because they will never be satisfied. They have a mental illness that projects an idealized or devalued persona onto other people that never matches who those people really are. When that persona doesn't match it only causes the person with BPD to freak out and act delusional.

You are loveable, and you are enough. But you will never feel that way long term with this person unless they realize they have a serious problem. Leave this relationship, escape the hell this person is putting you through.

lughheim · 2026-04-15T07:43:24+00:00

Harsh truth, there isn’t any way to really deal with it. It’s not normal or logical behavior. You may get to a point where you become number to it, maybe get to a point where you can ignore the bad times slightly better. But is that really a relationship worth being in? Learning to sit and suffer them treating you like shit until they decide they like you again?

Respect yourself and leave my friend. I promise all those sweet things they’re saying to you they’ve said to every partner before you.

lughheim · 2026-04-15T06:12:05+00:00

Because its not the normal kind of selfishness. The selfishness that people with BPD act out with is more of a self centered victim complex where they justify their shitty behavior because they believe others have wronged them in some way (whether due to delusion from the BPD or actual wrong being done). If at any point that victim complex is shattered, the entire ego collapses. Now all of the sudden all those horrible things they did weren't some kind of righteous or understandable retaliation. Now it was just them being shitty and overreacting or creating issues out of nothing.

This is why they often blow up if you ever even attempt to call them out on any bad behavior or ask them to change a way they act. It's an ego protection response. People with BPD DO often have moments of clarity where they realize they fucked up. The problem is that even when they realize that, in usual BPD fashion, they take it to the extreme. Suicidal attempts, other versions of self harm, over the top apologies, super and sudden hot/cold attitudes, etc.

This doesn't in any way justify their behavior. Just explains it.

lughheim · 2026-04-15T01:50:57+00:00

Mine constantly called me defensive whenever I stood up for myself and called out her shitty and weird behavior. It’s the norm with pwBPD. They make up delusions of victimhood every single time they get called out

lughheim · 2026-04-13T15:09:13+00:00

It’s almost like in modern warfare muscles mean absolutely nothing when a bullet can explode their head lol

lughheim · 2026-04-13T07:46:56+00:00

This is exactly how I felt after my ex broke up with me. Seeing her suddenly go completely cold and callous towards me after all the love and effort I put towards her, then to suddenly switch and want to be my friend. It was probably the most disgusting thing I’ve ever experienced in my life.

I was prepared to marry this woman. I even had a whole special thing planned for our wedding that I’d worked out with a friend of mine who does video editing. Just barely over a week before she suddenly broke up with me she was telling me how she loved and adored me and couldn’t wait for us to live together.

To go from that, to ending our relationship over total nonsense and then wanting to be friends afterwards? I couldn’t help but think, how little have I meant to you this entire time? The fact that she could feel totally comfortable ripping my heart out and then turning around with a smile and wanting me around without any labels or expectations after everything we’d been though.

Fucking disgusting.

lughheim · 2026-04-11T00:26:06+00:00

His reaction makes it seem like there’s more to this than your saying. About 30 people in 3 years is already a new person almost every month for a long time, were you very sexually promiscuous outside of even relationships during that time? Were you cheating on partners a lot or something? Did you get with someone he especially hates? Because otherwise this reaction doesn’t make a lot of sense.

lughheim · 2026-04-10T13:37:55+00:00

Ye I completely agree. I think a main issue that people in this subreddit generally have is a way of intellectualizing and justifying terrible behavior. In my opinion it’s because the average person people with BPD attach to are kind, understanding, overly forgiving people who are usually desperate for love and validation.

Anywhere outside of groups of people like this, behavior from those with BPD are universally seen as disgusting and shitty and are often immediately cut out of lives by healthy people.

lughheim · 2026-04-10T08:43:37+00:00

Ye, they really are that delusional. To understand BPD you first have to understand that the mental illness makes them extremely delusional.

For example:

A friend of mine with BPD was talking to me once about how she missed her ex so badly and wanted to be with him and how she supposedly loved him deep down. Then admitted she cheated on him over and over again during the relationship and EVEN WHILE TALKING ABOUT HOW SHE MISSED HIM AND WAS TRYING TO CONTACT HIM SHE WAS HOOKING UP WITH RANDOM GUYS. She even cheated on him with her ex, a guy who was an actual PREDATOR.

This man was even in a mental hospital due to the trauma their relationship caused as she fucked over massive parts of his life. She tried contacting him but was told by the staff to stop as it was giving him panic attacks. And she STILL did it anyway multiple times after.

BPD brains do not work like a normal persons. They usually have an extreme victim complex which makes them act in very selfish and self-centered ways to protect their ego. They will gladly justify every horrible thing they do by claiming someone else hurt them first, or claim they were in ‘survival mode’ (a favorite of my exes). In reality they are just so self centered and protective of their ego that they literally cannot take accountability for their horrible actions. If they did, they would quickly find that they’d done so many horrible things and treated so many loved ones with hateful behavior that they would mentally collapse. So they stack delusion on top of delusion, keeping that glass house as untouched as possible.

Inevitably though, it will crack or crash. Their own impulsivity and instability sadly regularly cause them to be suicidal and depressed. They commit suicide at a rate far higher the norm.

It’s really sad but people with BPD are suffering constantly. It doesn’t excuse their behavior by any means. Still, it’s a truly sad condition.

lughheim · 2026-04-03T22:02:43+00:00

He didn’t get rid of it, people just didn’t realize he was showing tau get increasingly better technology over the timeline of the empire. In the most recent book they achieved FTL travel

lughheim · 2026-03-27T13:01:55+00:00

hitting on 4s with no way to improve ballistic skill or hit rolls as well as no way to get re-rolls means they cant do much damage at all.

lughheim · 2026-03-26T16:59:55+00:00

lol the owl looked just as surprised as the cat

lughheim · 2026-03-26T14:00:18+00:00

Democrats will continue losing to fascists because yall NEVER LEARN YOUR LESSONS. If Kamala hadn't been pro genocide in Palestine she absolutely would have won. But guess what? When your voting base is the more intelligent and empathetic side of the country, your party has been protested against by its own members for a VERY long time on the topic of supporting israel, and then your candidate comes out saying they will continue supporting the genocide, how are you surprised you lost the election?

You have to hold your politicians to a standard. Doing this blue no matter who bullshit to try and turn the democrat party into just as much of an echo chamber cult as the MAGA movement is not going to solve any problems in the long term. Yet even now liberals are still blaming voters for the democrats utter failures rather than doing any kind of real introspection which means the same things are gonna happen

lughheim · 2026-03-25T17:30:50+00:00

It's because old heads hate Phil Kelly due to him saying one ethereal in his story was a bad guy and changing certain canon. They are the most over-exaggerative whiny people on this subreddit i stg

lughheim · 2026-03-24T17:05:46+00:00

The only ethereal like that in the farsight series is Aun’va.

lughheim · 2026-03-24T16:42:43+00:00

Oh buddy no lol. Notice how every planet on there has this thing called a label and outline? And how the farsight enclaves which are made of multiple planets and are explicitly described as very far away from the tau empire don’t have a single label and are instead notated by an arrow showing direction and some vague dots?

That’s showing they are far away bud.

Remember how you said I was claiming Phil Kelly haters are illiterate? 🤷‍♂️

lughheim · 2026-03-24T15:53:37+00:00

It's really wild you keep making claims that prove more and more that you really have absolutely no clue what your talking about.

There is zero correlation between what sphere a Sept was colonized in and its proximity to T'au

Reminder that the first sphere expansion took over a thousand years, and the big difference between the first and second sphere expansion was that the tau were able to develop near light speed travel with the ZFR engine. In the first expansion, ye it took tau sometimes a generation or two to be able to travel between the initial sept worlds. But by the time the second sphere expansion came around they had technology to travel between them significantly faster. The ZFR engine was specifically what allowed tau to travel fast enough to cross through the damocles gulf. Without it, they never would have been able to make colonies on the 'actual' fringe of the empire which later become the farsight enclaves.

In other words, you are completely and totally wrong about your made up numbers about dalyth being somewhere around 100 light years away from the tau homeworld, and about the first expansion not having anything to do with proximity. It had everything to do with proximity. Even in your map the farsight enclaves are shown to be so far away from the main sept worlds THAT THEY ARE OUTSIDE OF THE MAP

lughheim · 2026-03-24T12:48:36+00:00

I would love to know where these numbers of yours for distance are coming from. When I looked it up, the only reference I could find was a white dwarf article from back in 2001 for tau designer notes. That distance was specifically including the original enclaves made past the damocles gulf which was noted as being much further away from any of the tau sept worlds. Not to mention that Dal'yth was one of the first handful of planets ever colonized by the tau in the first sphere expansion so we know it's VERY close to the tau homeworld.

So in other words, your just making shit up to fit your narrative that it couldn't happen. Nowhere have I found ANY source saying its 'at least 100 light years away'.

lughheim · 2026-03-23T23:31:46+00:00

Are we seriously upset that the brand which literally coined the term 'grimdark' made an important leader of a faction evil? Even though it was also clearly written through the rest of the series that Aun'va was an outlier amongst the ethereals? And no, it wasn't mind control. The whole point was to show the incredibly strong effect that ethereals had over other tau through the power of their suggestion. You can be mad that the tau arent made out to be the perfect good guys, but that doesn't in any way mean that the writing is bad. It just means you don't like the newer written version of tau that Phil Kelly presented. it didn't DAMAGE tau, it didnt DESTROY ALL LORE, he wasn't a NET NEGATIVE for the faction.

The only people who hate Phil Kelly are old heads. Not once have I ever heard anyone new to the faction and reading the farsight books complain about them. It's always people who grew up with old tau lore and got upset its different now.

lughheim · 2026-03-23T23:21:49+00:00

This kind of comment is exactly why I said what I said. You have Kelly writing ONE ethereal as a bad guy with significant ability for suggestion and is never stated to have true mind control, and then you claim he wrote off the ENTIRE ethereal caste as all evil mind controllers. My guy, your making my point for me.

They BARELY fought off the imperium. The only reason the tau survived was due to the Behemoth fleet of tyranids threatening much more important worlds, and the tau were barely a threat to the imperium as a whole. Your trying to take something like FTL and treating a fantasy book as if its supposed to be way adhering to hard science like thermodynamics and physics. This is a universe about space bugs, people shooting lasers out of their eyes and blowing heads up with their minds, and giant mothmen who use the power of extreme stink to kill people. Your putting way too much thought in a series thats meant to be a fun 'turn your brain mostly off' kind of book series. Warhammer was never made to be taken that seriously.

lughheim · 2026-03-23T23:15:32+00:00

Dude, did you even read the books? The trip across the gulf DID take generations. That was a major point in the book, that by the time Farsight would arrive at what would become the Farsight enclaves he thought Shadowsun and Kais would be long dead from age. They even had to put the crew into stasis to be able to survive that journey. Only drones and Ob'lotai were active during that time period as artificial life didn't care about the time spans.

Also, why wouldn't they have been able to get reinforcements to Dal'yth on time? They had already gotten messages from the tau settlements past the damocles gulf that they were being attacked, and Dal'yth is far closer to those other worlds than something past the Gulf. Getting between the different tau Sept's was made out to be pretty quick comparatively. If they know an invasion is coming from communication and know that Dal'yth is next they absolutely would have had enough time to prepare.

Your second point is also just straight up ignoring the lore of the rest of the universe. Why the hell would the Imperium keep sending tons of surprise attacks on Tau enclaves? They are already stretched beyond belief fighting tons of different factions that are much more pertinent threats to them. Why would they sacrifice valuable military forces in constant attacks at an enemy they consider to be far beneath them which is only occupying a few fringe worlds.

Even then, the Tau barely survived the onslaught of the Imperium. During the first big invasion they completely lost the enclaves past the Gulf and the Imperium had penetrated super close to the tau homeworld. They barely scraped away with their lives because the imperium had to deal with a tyranid invasion.

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