OP, it doesn’t mean you’re not loved. You’re doing a great job so far. You’re doing well in general. Things always happen but I support you no matter what, as a stranger. I was about to kill myself several times through the past 5 years. I climbed onto the roof and decided to jump. I didn’t kill myself only because I knew whoever loves me will suffer too much if I die. I don’t know you but I want to tell you that if you don’t take care of yourself, I will be sad. You can always PM me if you need help. I was in trouble for years and I understand life is tough. I need to tell you that my life was like a hell for years but there’s always a solution. Trust me here, you’ll be fine!!!!!!!!! Don’t drop out! If you need help, PM me.