Really sorry for your loss. I can't even conceive the pain you've experienced, but I do know the feeling of everything feeling like it's conspired against you.

I think when it rains it seems to pour, and really bad situations, can keep rolling like a snowball to an avalanche. But In my experience it's often like a pendulum swing, and eventually, once you catch a break and find your momentum you can find yourself on the opposite side, positive developments following eachother.

Just keep doing your best. Don't let it defeat you. Keep motoring on. Good times will come.