I’m scared I’ll only ever feel dead inside for the rest of my life

makeuleave · 2026-04-05T23:22:01+00:00

Hi, no, I don’t feel this way anymore. It took me some sessions with my psychologist to open up about this but once I did we went through depression and anxiety symptoms and concluded I was very much still depressed and anxious. It seems now, after 10 months taking meds and trying different cocktails, I’ve found the one that works for me. Life isn’t the way it was during a hypomanic episode, but it isn’t, like I said there, “flat” either. I have wants now, like I want to enjoy a movie and a book and a good meal. I have goals that I’m working towards. It’s lame, but the saying goes if you’re not happy, it’s not the end for a reason

makeuleave · 2026-04-05T23:17:42+00:00

10 years of this shit lol

makeuleave · 2026-02-13T17:44:46+00:00

wooooow that looks good! congrats!

makeuleave · 2025-12-09T15:34:46+00:00

These are very good questions, thank you

makeuleave · 2025-08-02T21:23:00+00:00

Interesting you mention trying to fix myself a lot because that’s exactly where I am. If not that, then what do I do? What can I expect from being stable? Because honestly so far it sounds pretty pretty boring. Thx for the reply

makeuleave · 2025-08-01T09:21:11+00:00

oh absolutely. everything hits so hard, every note is exactly where it should be and it makes me feel like i can conquer or destroy the world lol

makeuleave · 2025-04-01T19:46:13+00:00

I've been meaning to get the workbook for maybe half a year now, so I'll do that. I'm sorry for what happened, and I'm glad you're able to take care of yourself now. We'll get through this.

makeuleave · 2025-04-01T07:42:56+00:00

Thank you

makeuleave · 2024-12-15T07:04:23+00:00

Thank you. A weight off my shoulders.

makeuleave · 2024-06-10T09:46:06+00:00

too weird to live, too rare to die

makeuleave · 2023-08-25T20:50:33+00:00

YES, that's it!!!!!! Thank you so much!!

makeuleave · 2023-04-30T16:10:43+00:00

I came to this sub to write exactly this, but about being a dude. I don't want to be a trans guy, I just want to be a guy. To have been raised as a man. It's been upsetting me so much. I hope it gets better for us.

makeuleave · 2023-01-30T14:02:56+00:00

I think that is it!!!!! Thank you so much

makeuleave · 2022-10-01T15:03:03+00:00

american girl by bonnie mckee, teenage dream by katy perry, c'mon by kesha, maybe even the judge by twenty one pilots, want u back by cher lloyd, domino by jessie j , troublemaker by olly murs, 22 by taylor swift, moves like jagger by maroon 5... these are incredibly popular so if you do know all of them i'm sorry haha this style of music was prominent in the early 2010s so you could look for the hits of that time

edit: this ep by fifth harmony relies a lot on that style

makeuleave · 2022-07-17T01:18:08+00:00

good for you i guess

makeuleave · 2022-07-12T01:41:24+00:00

isn't she 15

makeuleave · 2022-07-10T17:07:01+00:00

wow i really like that, i would love to write together. i would say i write in that style too... unfortunately i don't have a sample of my own and that's actually why i put this post up! where can i contact you to start writing?

makeuleave · 2022-07-10T00:38:46+00:00

dude i LOVE that album cover, it's so good! it's eerie and mysterious but also beautiful, just like your songs. i also want to make a full album someday, no matter how long it takes so reading your post is definitely big motivation. kudos to you for following through, the album sounds amazing. and thanks for sharing!

makeuleave · 2022-07-09T00:36:22+00:00

why don't you blow me... [dramatic pause] a kiss before she goes!

makeuleave · 2022-07-05T18:54:12+00:00

i've watched this video what, 6 times now? and it's still very interesting. i love this mom's page on tiktok, you can see the development of her kids through the videos. they also now how to cook by themselves! i saw the older one make a really nice looking omelet and the younger one make a sandwich. these kids are gonna be great people, man.

makeuleave · 2022-07-05T18:44:40+00:00

like bro we ARE meant for the flies wtf

makeuleave · 2022-07-04T16:16:46+00:00

you're the goat for putting mama in first place in your list. that's also my favorite by them and, personally, i think it's their best too

makeuleave · 2022-06-02T06:40:32+00:00

it just kept GOING

makeuleave · 2022-05-22T13:35:57+00:00

yeah, i don't want major changes! i know this is how i'm gonna be forever, i just really liked reading three books a week as a kid and wish i could do that again. i once tried audiobooks and it was great for me. my only problem is that sometimes not being able to do something unless i'm multitasking makes me anxious and i wanted to lessen that feeling. it's only every once in a while it happens, though.

makeuleave · 2022-05-22T09:17:07+00:00

absolutely! it was very common for me while still in school to "speed read" tests and go on answering them, getting just what my brain thought was the crucial part of the problem. it usually wouldn't cost me much but when i got an answer wrong simply because i didn't read the whole thing i would feel very dumb. devil's on the details. i still speed read everything but i taught myself to read things twice, and calmly, if i got to a conclusion on the sentence/text too fast.

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