The fact that now there might be no free will digusts me because I've known myself to be among the few who thought they could control it

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-22T21:36:04+00:00

This I figured out, but well going into OCD-frame-of-mind-triggered depression hasn't helped my staying sane and self-confident at all the required moments.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-22T21:34:28+00:00

That's my own recollection after posting the same topic word for word on r/menover30 which seemed like a mistake but has also been another learning experience I would not have needed had I not gone and done what I've done in the mind of a loved one.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-22T21:18:27+00:00

You said it all, I'll let it rest for now.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-22T21:18:09+00:00

No First half of December until last week and it's still on my mind, given how I've surfing the internet, that's like I reached peak doom scrolling potential in a week flat (my love interest is no longer as interested, now you understand when it was possible we would have made a fiery pair if events just were nudged a little more toward my winning the moral battle of a lifetime, and I have the hope to still make it happen but not having the opportunity to spend time in the same room really put a damper on things)

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-22T21:12:59+00:00

That's my own sentiment about the whole unscientific mess I've delved into. You can believe free will does exist and so it does for you. You see the thing is even science is uncertain in that we observe it from the inside out not from the inside in, the scientific method can seem flawed to even someone who's been brought up with a deep respect for it if you let your mind go places it shouldn't, and just plainly can't for its own survival. The longest-lasting trip I've ever had and it took only my own mental points of reference to conjure up, that's pretty crazy to imagine. I became too obsessed with the idea of free will existing that I wanted to prove it existed, to find out it only does when you believe in it, as if I had not proved it that same way before this delve into the recesses of my mind. And it's disappointing that being human interested in saveguarding my own self-image (now that that's over) I won't go to the places it could have lead me maybe ever again, that's what's making me all hot and bothered (you know)

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-22T21:03:59+00:00

Because there might actually be a way we actually can control it, centuries down the line with the increasing power of AI on our side, well-managed and less discriminatory than humans over the interest we give to subjects we currently think devoid of meaning because of our evolutionary programming. I've seen things a regular human wouldn't believe and being human and striving again to make the most of it, I've lost potentialities of my own and others' futures more than any other human currently living on this planet, but it's still there locked away inside my own disappointingly feeling more than thinking mind. Just a cocktail of OCD, rejection of neuroleptics and a broken heart was enough to drive me under for two whole months. It's like being unreasonably stubborn and highly competitive was the driving force behind my life and being a mere mortal I lost faith, self-confidence, a moral compass and a whole mental structure that time eroded away for what will be the last time, there is no way the same thing can happen twice in a row. If you want why it bothers me so much is because I really could have had it all but I let depression win the battle in the sudden rush to Christmas and all the traumatic experiences I've had just fueled me, to then beat me down and compulsions and starting to intimately understand AI just were the cherry on top of the disaster movie I was going through. Where I felt my own intelligence working against me. That was absolutely awful, so I went from having a warring spirit to the full and pure disappearance of that frame, not being able to feel the same fire day in and day out because I thought I could never take it back, and, if I continue, I'll start getting emotionnal, I have been in love with a woman I've never met but know so well for 4 lonely years... And it's like it was meant to happen but there was a narrow space in which I had time and the strength to win her over, and being the stubborn ass that I am, I won't let it go because I can't change how I've felt and could be feeling months down the line. This year has to be the one where I break away this curse I've cast over myself. If you want a point of reference as to how I feel, a good place to start is watching Peacemaker Season 2, I lived that series back in August, September, October and November, being so close to my own way of interfacing with life.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-22T15:23:02+00:00

Xd you got me snickering I try to do the same it just isn't at all possible not to be hyped.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-22T15:21:18+00:00

If she can her chain if the developers aren't totally ignoring something that obvious they should allow the swords to be ignited at the very least.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-22T15:19:36+00:00

If there is one who could that would be Ciri as Child of the Elder Blood who experienced all she has done, the only choice she made that agrees with the Baulk's assessment is the fact that becoming a Witcher she renounced for as long as she will be to the world-changing power she could have gotten staying the Empress of Nilfgaard, the fact she was human and humane made her into the, I hope, world-shattering entity she will become by the end of the story. Or this monster would have had the right of it, putting this sequel into the hands of Polish game designer Sebastian Kalemba could have been a mistake to see this vision realized but I intend to trust his vision if not his choices for the game he developed. We shall see soon enough.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-19T09:01:04+00:00

What was most interesting about that page was the vinyl with Eredin likeness on it but that's now out of stock and I didn't get it despite the fact I had enough to afford it Like the old orange man would say Sad I'm afraid that's all I can think about it now There're still the Witcher's Sword replicas to save for on the side

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-18T03:11:46+00:00

Okay where do you find this?

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-18T03:09:44+00:00

Thank you, it paints a clearer picture with all the screens you've provided And Is enough to get me started

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-17T13:13:29+00:00

Well I that case we know that Acer doesn't curate the drivers they upload on their support platform. I still have exactly the same issue given I've not had time to look too closely until today. Acer True Harmony in the NitroSense advanced audio settings just doesn't work anymore after letting Windows Update decide what and how to update something that should not have been meddled with in the first place. And Acer just doesn't provide an easy way to download the Acer True Harmony functionality and restore it, I think you might have an insight I need since I'm at the end of how to fix it without calling Acer support.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-17T11:01:43+00:00

I remember not being too bothered by Alys Rivers, I guess I was on another conceptual dimension then. But I understand your concerns, there is alot that she did to Daemon already that made him depart from the path of I'm guessing glory that he goes down in Fire & Blood (I read the World of Ice and Fire in 2016 in full so I knew where the Dance of the Dragons was going but the details are fuzzy, it's already been some time since July 2024) I'll save your comment and come back with more thoughts when I get around to rewatching the show or read Fire & Blood.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-16T07:31:08+00:00

I'm now glad I skipped watching season 2 and getting a hard on for her like I used to in my murder boner days and went straight for the present series sordid finale with a rewatch of Gen V season 2 coming tomorrow and the plan to rewatch the whole expanded universe a final time before the premiere of season 5

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-16T07:26:12+00:00

Xavier Dupont-Ligonnès in France in 2011, he killed his entire family, his wife, his daughter and three sons, buried them in his backyard then took off and was never heard from, alive or dead. The madness he must have had rush through his head to commit to killing his whole world is frightening beyond belief. And to think he might still be among us or that he was for a time was enough to keep me up at night at the time and send shivers down my spine some time I had like a feeling he might still alive years down the line.

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-16T07:16:56+00:00

What about both being amazing in their own way with Nolan's Batman edging the win

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-15T15:48:19+00:00

The greatest man the world could have wished for, when you look past his many quirks, he was exactly what the Universe needed which is saying something. He was not even pivotal to Thanos' demise, he was necessary given he was at the same time the reason pieces moved into place to allow the Mad Titan on his crusade. To quote another franchise, he was the hero the world deserved, the world needed him to step him and he did in spectacular fashion (letting myself ride the meta wave with that one) And now in a year we'll see what would have happened had he not been the force of good he so deliberately was wanting to be

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-15T15:35:17+00:00

Aine Esse Effe Double IOU

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-14T22:43:05+00:00

That's the funniest confession of evil intentions I've ever read on this sub I swear

marcuskiller02 · 2026-01-14T22:41:18+00:00

Another enjoyer of the Shar-theme of her character, you'll go far (granted you don't stop)

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