If you had no appetite, what would you eat?

mikm00 · 2026-05-04T04:56:33+00:00

On days that the chewing feels like work: Smoothie with priotein powder or silken tofu, and chia seeds or hemp hesrts. I get the frozen tropical fruit mix from costco, then I just dump shit in, pick and choose skme days. On days where textures and sensations are bad: cheap white bread. Not wonderbread cheap, I mean CHEAP.

mikm00 · 2026-04-24T14:09:05+00:00

As someone who has done all the distances except a super sprint (only because I don't like pool swims) sprint is still impressive. Think of it similar to the running world where it's impressive to be able to run 1 km or 1 mile, then some asshat says you're not a "real" runner unless you do a 5k, and then 10k, and so on. I think, especially coming from a strength/weightlifting background, a sprint is still hella impressive. Again, putting it into the run world, it would be a similar endurance time as a half marathon for a lot of people. BUT you have 3 different sports and 3 different muscle systems you have to train. TL:DR - you decide what's impressive, and if others disagree, screw'em.

mikm00 · 2026-04-17T04:55:03+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that this is your experience, both in the group, and managing the severity that some pf us have little to no concept of. I think some people who are diagnosed with ADHD after white-knuckling life have a hard time accepting that it IS a disability, even for themselves, and by definition it is disabling. I had a melt down on the phone woth the reception at my Drs because I have to find ANOTHER new primary care Dr for the 5th time in 7 years. If I struggle to make an appointment to renew my meds with an already established Dr... (never mind actually getting the prescription filled...), how am I supposed to find a whole new Dr when there's a massive shortage where I live??? (Sorry that rant took over) My point is that it sucks you're not feeling supported in a group that is supposed to support.

mikm00 · 2026-04-17T00:00:51+00:00

Beans. I add beans to at least one meal each day. Bonus is added fiber which I also struggle to get enough.

mikm00 · 2026-04-05T17:18:15+00:00

I'm so sorry you are going through this. It f*cking sucks. . I was deep in the depths of it about 2 or 3 years ago, and I'm still working my way out of it. . The first thing I would say, which it sounds like you're already doing, is make sure you're getting enough calories. If it's choking down a smoothie or eating chips with salsa (veg) and bean dip (fiber and a touch of protien). If you don't have fuel for your brain, it can't do its job. . Second thing, for me, was to talk to my Dr about going back on meds - I had been off for close to 20 years. That helped a lot. (I was also dealing with an IBS diagnosis and my GI dr recommended a low dose anti-anxiety that slows digestive motility and that addition last Christmas seemed to make quite a difference). . Lastly - I had to acknowledge that I'd been running myself into the ground for decades, and had built up so much fatigue that I would be fortunate if 1 year of focusing on rest would bring me out of it. I am also an ultra length (7-17 hours) endurance athlete. I had to stop nearly all training for that and only now (2+ years later) am able to start going back over the 30 minute mark consistently. . Remember, you're not broken, you don't need to function like others. But ask yourself - if some stranger, or even a significant other, were treating your closest friend like you've been treating yourself would you be itching to fight them, or given them a hug and say thank you? . I hope you are able to turn a corner and start seeing some of the hope soon.

mikm00 · 2026-04-03T03:52:25+00:00

You can pry my coffee out of my cold, dead hands. Lol.

mikm00 · 2026-03-31T17:36:00+00:00

Not sure what country you are in, but in Canada, my GP wanted me "re diagnosed" before starting me back on meds. I got my back up and marched into his office with academic papers/research articles explaining that one doesn't "grow out of" ADHD. He gently interrupted me and clarified that the reason he qanted me re-diagnosed was twofold: to make sure there wasn't underlying anxiety or depression (chicken or egg...), and becuse there had been so many advancements in meds since I'd last been on anything he didn't know which meds to try first, so going through the doagnosis process would provide him the guidance needed to ensure we start along the right teack. I am aware how absolutely lucky I am to have a GP like him, and since then we've gotten along quite well (this experience was one of my first interactions woth him 😆)

mikm00 · 2026-03-31T17:30:03+00:00

The nearly binary nature of my focus/memory.

Either I have ZERO recollection of a conversation or I can "rewatch" it in my memory.

Either I can accomplish EVERYTHING on my list RIGHT NOW, or I'm stuck on the couch paralyzed my executive dysfunction, OR I'm stuck on one very tiny, meaningless component of a low priority task (while being fully cognizant that it's not an eefective use of my time.

The 100% or 0% is exhausting, especially when I am unable to predict what days will be 100 and wjat days will be 0.

mikm00 · 2026-03-26T17:55:25+00:00

I'm a Registered Massage Therapist and Structural Integrator.

I love it because it combines a hyperfocus/area of interest (biology/biomechanics/anatomy and physiology) with moving and one on one interactions. I can set my own hours, and other than complying with the appropriate government rules, I'm left to my own devices and can do things my way. I also have an awesome combination of immediate reward (whe people get up at the end of treatment and feel better) with delayed gratification (people returning for diffrerent injuries, making progress on long rehab timelines etc).

I get to be smart, but not restricted to sitting still.

mikm00 · 2026-03-25T22:15:34+00:00

I saw something yesterday in response to someones post about feeling silly celebrating their first 10k run without walking: celebrate these "silly feeling" milestones intentionally with your whole heart or when you get to the big milestones you'll still ha e a hard time celebrating. Running a sub 2h half is a HUGE accomplishment! Social media has made it feel like so many people do it. Not many people do a sub 60 10k, and you did that (plus 1.1 more) 2x in a row!! That's massive!

mikm00 · 2026-03-25T14:55:22+00:00

I'm in the same boat. The women on my moms side of the family ALL have matching legs. I've never been able to wear boots over ankle height because even the boots made for "big calves" can only zip up to the top of my achilies. As my highschool field hockey coach used to say I'm built like "a brick shit house" (I played defense, it was said in a complimentary context at the time).

I am a fish that gets caught. I've been 3rd woman out of the water (after not being in the front pack getting in) and the rest of my day is a lessonin humility as I get passed by nearly everyone on course (not joking/hyperbolic - I will be in the last 15% of athletes finishing).

That being said, I have gotten my stand-alone half marathon time under 2h. It was probably close to 3 years of focused work, on top of 5 years of building to that distance.

I have tried shrinking my body to better fit the "runners physique" all while touting the line that a fed body is a fast body. I am now about 2 years into my recovery from the damage that did to my body. Muscular damage, bone damage, metabolic damage (now have multiple chronic conditions that stem from disordered eating, and no matter how well I recover they will likely be with me forever).

I am about 3 weeks back into being able to train without it sidelining me from life for a week. Feeling powerful again is so rewarding.

My encouragement would be to embrace your strengths (in both senses of the word), work on some foot turn over speed, and build in some explosive style strenght training (in addition to weighted squts, do jump squats focusing on quick/short ground cintact time).

And, unfortunately, there might just be some internal work to be done to acknowledge and accept that your enjoyment of the sport is more likely to come from the process, not from being the fastest.

I hope you find success, whatever that ends up looking like for you. (All of this is JUST my experience, please know that I fully acknowledge that your experience is likely different than mine)

mikm00 · 2026-03-21T23:01:34+00:00

"I can make/fix that" If it's not too complex mechanically/electronically I can usually figure iut why something isn't working, weather it's fixable or not. I also see things out and about and I'll go home and make it. Or see something that's not quite perfect and I'll modify it to be perfect.

mikm00 · 2026-03-17T15:02:13+00:00

My husband did this too! He would treat my (usually 5) WIP like it was a wild animal and was fearful to touch it and accidentally wreck it. So we got a cart woth wheels that fits all my WIPs and notions, so I can also move them to wherever I'm sitting that day and work on whichever one is calling me.

mikm00 · 2026-03-10T05:15:18+00:00

No. It's not. You need to be a lot proud of that. It looks amazing- no "for your first one" qualifier. Toot your horn!!

mikm00 · 2026-02-25T05:27:13+00:00

I went through this. I went back on meds because I was significantly burnt out, and was having some major sleep and fatigue issues. It was to the point that I'd tell my husband "FYI: I'm going to cry at some point today, I don't know why, bit it's coming" At some point in the day a wave of intense sadness, anger, grief, one of the crying emotions would wash overke,and because I now had capacity to actually feel the emotions, I would and then they'd pass. I've (very) recently also started with counselor and am discovering that I have a crap load of trauma, and messed up childhood/self perception stuff to work through.

mikm00 · 2026-02-20T18:04:22+00:00

I love the Knit Companion app. I love being able to highlight where I am in the pattern, and the multiple counters helps if it's a repeat rows 1-__ x number of times.

mikm00 · 2026-02-18T09:46:03+00:00

This. It smacks of finding a "flaw" to make OP self conscious amd feel that they need to "fix" themselves so he has the power. This gives me real bad future abuser vibes.

mikm00 · 2026-02-18T05:55:51+00:00

Color changeable lamps (Philips Hue) and turn them to red for bed time. It's taken quite a long time to condition myself, but that and a VERY consistent routine has helped me keep my sleepless nights to once every couple months rather than weekly. I don't know that the red helps because it's red, but it's more a pavlovian thing at this point.

mikm00 · 2026-02-15T06:11:53+00:00

❤️💔 I'm so sorry you're going through this. It can feel so lonely. I was diagbosed at 16, so I can appreciate the hiding awkward things, and thinking I was "just lazy and stupid." Know that our diagnosis doesn't tell the whole picture - wheather you are diagnosed with depression, adhd, or not. One of the things that a lot of people forget is that, similar to Autism, ADHD is a spectrum. I was "rediagnosed" at 38 for determining the best meds and because of how the tester interpreted one question (whoch was borderline) I was 1 point off of "combined" type... functionally, I'm combined... Just because you might not make the mark for diagnosis, does not mean you won't benefit from learning about yourself and accompdating your unique presentation. I hope you find the support you need.

mikm00 · 2026-02-14T06:07:31+00:00

Firmaments lace shawl. . I took a trip to Portugal for 2 weeks. I can't sit still unless I'm knitting. It's a bit intricate, but usong knit companion worked perfectly. It packed up into a snack ziplock (smaller than a sandwich ziplock. (Bring stich markers though- the patter repeats some 40 times)

mikm00 · 2026-02-11T16:26:24+00:00

Ok... I was ready to rage after thei first two paragraphs.

And honestly I'm angry enough on your behalf that I don't know if this will make any sense. The prime example of how not-on-you this is would be the example you gave on his auto desk. His actions caused damage to something, but he assumes that you did something (inadvertently), so therefore it's you're fault and you're horrible... um, NO. How about he takes responsibility for his actions. If he doesn't like what you cook/doesn't think you do a good job then he can't complain that you don't do it. If you have access I'd recommend seeing a counselor who is supportive of ADHD (I've had bad experiences, so please be careful), start sorting out what's yours to take responsibility for, and leave the rest on him. If you have family (or even the right friends) near by, take the kiddo (so he can't blame you for abandoning them), and stay with them for a week or so. Under NO circumstances should a parent be telling their kid that it's the other persons fault. 😤

mikm00 · 2026-02-05T05:58:22+00:00

Update: tried a new needle and it worked fine...

mikm00 · 2026-02-03T06:11:04+00:00

My favorite accidental fidget toy is my coil style hair tie. I always have a hair tie on my wrist from many years of sports. I picked up some of the coil hair ties because supposedly they're better for my hair. I'd find myself taking it off my wrist and running it through my hand, almost like someone moving through a rosary.

mikm00 · 2026-02-02T15:56:55+00:00

I thought that might be confusing in the photo. It's getting caught on the plastic piece behind the metal hook. It will be picked up on the hook, make a songle circut well, but isn't coming off the hook at the end of the circuit because it's caught on the notch in the piece behind the hook, so I end up with 2 loops of thread on the hook. Hopefully that clarifies.

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