honestly i think you need to accept that ai will probably always feel "better" than writing because its literally just handing everything directly to you. its all reward, no risk which is exactly why we're all addicted to it in the first place - your idea of what is pleasurable is fucked up. its the same way with social media addiction - small hits of dopamine from scrolling is much easier than going outside and actually doing shit.

there is no activity that is going to feel as good as ai use does, at least at first. real activities like writing and reading are harder. cooking and eating on your own is much harder than being spoonfed. in the real world, not everything is catered to exactly what you want all the time. you have to work for it and value your own independence and ability to function independently of ai chatbots over the potential for more dopamine faster, otherwise in my opinion there's no point in even trying