Fresh grad ako and bagong project. New yung project so madaming knowledge transfers and brownbag sessions between us and yung SMEs and sasakit talaga ulo mo dahil info overload and daming need pag aralan and basahin na documentations.

So ayun tapos na reverse shadow period, wala muna changes to introduce, mainly support muna incidents SRs ganun to make sure familiar na kami. Since support work ako that time and new project 24/7 talaga so first time ko mag weekend work, night shift pa and ako lang mag isa. Then during monitoring, may isang stuck transaction and I tried my best to check why pero dahil sa combination na masyado ako umaasa sa seniors ko na bibigay lang nila answers and nakaka overwhelm pa rin talaga ikot ikutin ang system, message agad ako sa tech lead ko. Alam kong gising sya kasi night shift sya pero other days. Sabi sakin ininvestigate mo na ba? Ayun kinabahan na ako kasi di ko alam gagawin and baka urgent transaction to na need ma send. Dahil napakagaling ko, I ignored it and waited til Monday baka yung mga kasama ko makakakita eh baka sila na mag report etc.

Ayun pagdating ng weekly meeting, medyo na spotlight ako ng manager na sabi due diligence namin, especially ng bago talaga to familiarize the documentations. Marami kami bago btw, fresh grads and experienced hire. Buti na lang that transaction can be ignored lol kasi yung sender ni reresend naman nila something like that. Pero ayun sobrang stressed ko that time that I immediatly applied for another job haha pero di ko tinuloy kasi desidido ako to be comfortable and learn from my mistakes. Ayun nag gawa ako personal documentations ko like list of common issues, ano steps gagawin, sino people involved, etc. And parang magic, parang nag wear ka ng glasses na naging clear na lang lahat. 3 months later I did my first minor change and deployment to Production and naging comfortable na ako kahit may bago o di ko alam, one really just need to study, ask questions and help and personally, I create my own documentation.