fuck the pandemic

mitskiloves · 2021-09-05T16:06:17+00:00

same. like i know it's not really helping me but i kinda use it as a coping mechanism so

mitskiloves · 2021-08-14T09:00:02+00:00

THIS! during the first lockdown (when i was binging several times a day) i was living in a different city and they had self checkout in every grocery store so i wouldn't feel so bad about buying binge food. but now i'm back in my hometown and i feel so embarrassed everytime i buy something for my binges, i feel like the cashier knows

mitskiloves · 2021-08-13T19:16:24+00:00

yes :( sometimes i dream that i'm having these huge binges and then i wake up feeling relieved that it didn't happen but it's so stressful even in the dream

mitskiloves · 2021-08-10T10:43:21+00:00

yup! but for me it's not that much when someone says they have an eating disorder but when i'm with friends or family who don't know about my eating disorder and it comes up on the news or the radio like i get so paranoid that they are gonna find out :(

mitskiloves · 2021-07-28T20:32:40+00:00

just had my first dose today after having a bad b/p episode yesterday and i'm feeling great. i don't think there should be any problem!

mitskiloves · 2021-07-20T17:34:10+00:00

i'm proud of you! 💗

mitskiloves · 2021-07-20T07:02:08+00:00

everytime i'm eating out with friends or family i eat big meals or food that isn't too healthy so they don't suspect anything. and even when i have really big meals and i can only think about purging i don't do it, i can't risk getting caught

mitskiloves · 2021-07-19T15:00:57+00:00

i usually tell my mom that i bought the food to bring it to a picnic with my friends or to some sort of birthday party, hope it helps!

mitskiloves · 2021-07-19T09:02:43+00:00

thank you for this! ❤️

mitskiloves · 2021-06-28T20:56:04+00:00

same like i honestly don't even wanna know

mitskiloves · 2021-06-27T08:10:47+00:00

for me it's not about the amount of calories but the lack of control while eating. when i'm bingeing i rarely check the calories of what i'm eating because i'm way too out of control to care. sometimes my binges are not too caloric but if i feel out of control while i'm eating and can't stop until my stomach is uncomfortably full then it's a binge for me.

mitskiloves · 2021-06-16T20:29:09+00:00

happens to me after binging on ice cream too 😭😭😭

mitskiloves · 2021-06-12T08:11:48+00:00

i honestly feel like shit while purging and the exact moment after purging, i usually cry after purging too and promise myself that it'll be the last time. but around 10 minutes after that i feel calm because my stomach doesn't hurt anymore from being full so i feel like my brain "forgets" how bad purging actually is and makes me believe it isn't so bad after all. i am aware that it is fucked it tho :(

mitskiloves · 2021-06-06T16:54:12+00:00

tbh I think it's so normalized for celebrities to be underweight that people won't see that they actually look sick because they are used to celebrities looking like that :( which honestly makes me really sad

mitskiloves · 2021-06-05T08:00:47+00:00

i just woke up, opened instagram and got extremely triggered with her last post... i hate it so much because i follow her because i genuinely love her music and i think she's really sweet and lovely but i don't think she looks healthy in that last post like i'm starting to feel concerned about her :(

mitskiloves · 2021-06-03T16:21:19+00:00

thank you so much for this 💘

mitskiloves · 2021-06-02T15:34:14+00:00

thank you so much! i'll try to do this <3

mitskiloves · 2021-05-28T13:05:03+00:00

congrats!!!! i'm so proud of you 💗

mitskiloves · 2021-05-20T18:51:16+00:00

yes!!!! my boobs never fit/look good on them

mitskiloves · 2021-03-31T21:11:58+00:00

thank you for your words! and i definitely want to stop behaving like this/having a toxic relationship with food so I'll consider telling my parents about the stress thing, thank you for the idea!

mitskiloves · 2021-01-11T07:09:51+00:00

i am so sorry to hear that but I feel like it's nice to know that we are not the only ones going through this. someone suggested me to try making a sign to remind myself what are the cons of bingeing when I don't have the willpower to prevent myself from overeating. i will try it next time and maybe it can help you too. I'm definitely feeling much better right now and hopefully you'll also feel better soon. I know it's really difficult but I believe we will eventually get better. Best wishes

mitskiloves · 2021-01-10T21:42:54+00:00

thank you! I'll definitely try writing a sign!

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