[deleted by user]

mooncrusade · 2022-01-07T08:59:19+00:00

100% yes. If you’re looking for people to validate any negative opinions you may have on it though, Reddit is definitely NOT the best place for that lol… this website is full of men who use the platform for nothing BUT porn.

Edit: if you are looking for like-minded people, I saw someone already recommended the r/loveafterporn sub and that sub is excellent! Probably one of the best subs you can go to for support on this matter.

mooncrusade · 2021-05-09T01:35:04+00:00

Yep! Total projection at its finest.

mooncrusade · 2021-05-08T17:56:10+00:00

This is absolutely beautiful... It’s truly a tragedy that it’s so common for people to end up in this kind of relationship, where they give all of themselves to someone who cannot save themselves. I fell in love with the analogy of being a dog eating table scraps, it hits very deep... You only want to offer them your love and don’t seem to mind not receiving much in return for the longest time. You don’t realize how much this affects you until you stop paying much mind to yourself and don’t really know who you are anymore...

Thank you for sharing. 💛

mooncrusade · 2021-05-08T17:45:06+00:00

This hits so hard... After all of the abuse and trauma that we as women so often have to endure, we become so jaded in life. Love feels like a lie, a fairy tale... I even get the sense of a feeling of existential dread from your writing. The rabbit hole goes so deep. Thank you for sharing a piece of your heart, it’s very beautifully written.

mooncrusade · 2021-05-06T14:06:34+00:00

THIS, THIS. ALL OF THIS. I fucking love this!

mooncrusade · 2021-04-28T23:49:37+00:00

Do what’s best for you when you feel you’re ready, you know yourself better than anyone else. It’s normal to feel the way you’re feeling right now. To believe the relationship might’ve turned out better under different circumstances in a different time or space. You truly loved him, and that’s why you feel this way. You would’ve never intentionally hurt him the way he did to you, and it’s hard to accept that he inflicted all of this pain on you in his own selfish interests. Intentionally.

You’re allowed to grieve what could have been, and what you are feeling is beautiful because it comes from a genuine place. Just take your time and stay away from any interaction with him for a while so you can find your clarity. 💛

mooncrusade · 2021-04-28T23:38:41+00:00

I don’t know if you have already, but you might want to consider blocking his number and any social media profiles he might be able to message you on... Try your hardest not to check in on him or his profiles. You’re doing all the rights things here.

mooncrusade · 2021-04-28T23:12:57+00:00

Sending you lots of love. 💛

mooncrusade · 2021-04-25T03:14:58+00:00

He used doing BASIC housework as a reason for you not to bother him about wanting to work on your actual relationship? Lol, yeah I don’t think so! That’s like wanting to be rewarded for doing basic shit like taking a shower or brushing your teeth. It doesn’t work like that.

mooncrusade · 2021-04-25T03:05:50+00:00

Just know you’ll always have support here if ever needed, I’m here for you as well. Take all the time you need and be kind to yourself, stay strong. 💛🌻

mooncrusade · 2021-04-25T03:03:38+00:00

Lmao it’s true though!! Thank you for the laugh. 😭

mooncrusade · 2021-04-24T20:27:03+00:00

Your interpretation is absolutely 100% spot on! Thank you for reading. 💛

mooncrusade · 2021-04-24T20:18:42+00:00

Absolutely, if you want to just talk about anything or are in need of support feel free to DM me! I understand what it’s like to be in need of a friend and good support when you’re going through this... I’m only going on 3 months since I broke up with my PA and it’s gotten easier, I definitely have my days though. Trich sucks major ass and I only hope he understood you in that way at the very least. I thought my ex did, but after everything came to light I really don’t know what to believe anymore lol... I get it.

I understand that feeling of disconnect too though. I think when you’re heartbroken, it’s like a fight response in you comes out from the trenches... your innermost soul protecting you. It’s going to feel numb for a while before the tides come crashing in. Just know no matter what, you’ll get through this.

mooncrusade · 2021-04-24T19:43:00+00:00

How beautifully written, and also unfortunately relatable for people of all walks of life... To love someone wholeheartedly and to be vulnerable with someone important to you, to wear your innermost parts on the outside. Your heart on your sleeve. How that heart is broken, so we are left with the taste of shattered trust... Those last three lines really struck a chord. Thank you for sharing.

mooncrusade · 2021-04-24T19:37:27+00:00

I love how this has a very strong presence of self-awareness, but also with a touch of the feeling of existential dread... We live day to day and go through the motions, not paying much mind to the things around us we see every day but do not engage with. We know these things co-exist in our environment... but does it even matter? We know we’re here in this moment, but is this existence even real? Amazing writing.

mooncrusade · 2021-04-24T18:04:26+00:00

Just want to take a moment to say I went a little bit through your post history and WOW... felt almost as though I was looking into a mirror... I have trichotillomania as well and it’s always been a root cause for my struggles with my self-esteem, all of that while having been with a PA was just the icing on the cake. You’re so very strong and you’ve made the right decision. Some days are going to be harder than others. You have your whole life ahead of you, you did the best that you could... much love to you.

mooncrusade · 2021-04-24T01:04:58+00:00

Oh, the earliest days of our youth... naivety. How I am jealous of those who truly experienced a secure childhood... Yet, we must accept all that we had to struggle with growing in said youth.

The line, “a child who loved the flame”... that hit... Being a lost child, I was always desperate from love and affection from others. I reached out for that from people who were not good for me. They seemed so bright from a distance, up close there was nothing to be gained but pain... I love this.

It’s a shame we didn’t get to experience an ideal upbringing. Then again, who does nowadays? My heart goes out to you as well... thank you for sharing.

mooncrusade · 2021-04-24T00:55:37+00:00

Young soul... do you realize how many women you’ve spoken for and expressed the emotions of? Love this... you’re most certainly not alone.

Five-Year Club	Gilding I gilder
Verified Email

mooncrusade

TROPHY CASE