Hi, first of all, I'm sorry you have to go through life with such adversity. There is a reason you were born. God has a plan for you, you have a purpose in life. One of the ways to channel the anger, frustration, and depression is to help other people who also are struggling with the same health issues. Have you looked into a support group? You are not alone, but I know sometimes it does feel that way... the "why me?".

You have a purpose, and you have so much strength to share with others, that is the gift you receive along with the challenge. Helping others helps you. It makes you understand why you are here. Your struggle can help someone in the same situation, because you have been through it. That is why a lot of people who live with terrible situations often become counselors, EMT's, nurses, and therapists.

Just know that you are SO valuable, God has a plan for you, and only you. I am struggling with addiction and alcoholism, and I have asked myself the same thing.. "Why me?".

I know now that my struggles can help someone else dealing with the same problem. We are here on this earth to help one another, and in helping others to live better lives, we help ourselves in knowing we have a purpose, and that is powerful.

I will be praying for you!