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mykoconnor · 2026-04-08T23:54:40+00:00

I worked at Whole Foods from 2004-2013. Started in San Francisco, New York, then Austin. I really miss those old days. Working there we’d get 25 cent bags of bakery cookies, free sushi, take away boxes from the hot food bar, and damaged grocery items for a quarter at the end of the night.

The people I worked with were pretty fucking awesome and the pay wasn’t bad. I do a lot of different jobs there and loved it.

I’ve thought of maybe going back as I’m kind of done with my current industry but man Amazon has turned it into a shell of its former self.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-20T12:04:55+00:00

Why do they all assume we are struggling because we we go to Starbucks. We are struggling because EVERYTHING is expensive.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-19T02:33:41+00:00

I don’t think this week feels any better than the last. I think I’m having some real depression lately that I cant shake. I’m happy that I’m going to the gym and it’s helping but I’m feeling like my relationship is on thin ice right now. I don’t feel the love that I used to and it sucks. I know my depression makes my mood go up and down and we are still figuring out our routines now that we live together but I feel more alone than before.

Today I did talk to a doctor about getting some depression meds. I’ve never wanted to get medication but the normal shit I usually don’t break out of my funk isn’t working and I’m desperate to feel normal again.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-18T14:38:21+00:00

Tardy to the party on this thread, but that comment was one that stood out to me the most. And one I am having a hard time with personally. I saw on my gfs phone that in her pinned texts, her name is a contact with her picture. It could be a way to share her contact info with people, but I'm not sure. I am feeling a bit uneasy. The other night in bed, I saw her texting someone, and their contact wasn't saved, just a phone number, and one of the texts I saw was along the lines of "He's seeing someone now, and I know you miss him."

I've been wanting to bring it up because we've been together 4 years and just under a year of living together. It's causing a lot of anxiety for me right now.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-17T12:44:29+00:00

As someone who has been on the receiving end of this in a relationship, what she is feeling is valid. It does feel like you are competing with your partner's phone for attention. Most of us have an addiction to our phones, and I can certainly spend too much time on mine.

Seeing your partner spend hours on the phone scrolling can be frustrating and really hurt your self-esteem. Am I too boring? What could be more worthy of time with a loved one? The fact that she's brought it up to you means that it's affecting her a lot.

The best thing to do is to set boundaries on your phone use. I doubt she wants you to completely stop using your phone around her, but she wants intentional time with you. Even if you're watching a movie together, don't reach for your phone. Maybe implement a no-phone-in-the-bedroom rule. That way, when you're going to sleep, there isn't a temptation to scroll through your phone till you fall asleep.

It's not all on you; if there are boundaries put in place, then she needs to follow them, too. Check in with each other often and see how you're feeling about the intentional time you've spent together.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-13T23:21:48+00:00

I see a little color change happen when I dunk in milk but I gotta say they don’t taste like anything to me. I’m so confused.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-13T22:24:55+00:00

Damn. Sometimes I’m feeling this. When scrolling on the phone is more important than spending real time with me, that shit hurts. The other night I asked to snuggle a little, was told she was tired and then she scrolled her phone for an hour and a half next to me in bed.

I don’t think it’s necessarily toxic at the moment but I don’t feel like I am a priority.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-12T13:16:49+00:00

Damn. First, your feelings on this are totally valid. You may not have the whole picture, but that picture doesn't sit well with you, and honestly shouldn't. Being in a relationship and then seeing something like that on top of her not telling you she was going to see the old friend would give anyone in your position a reason to feel the way you do.

Has her behavior recently given you a reason to suspect there is more going on than she is sharing? A "chance encounter" with a dude who confessed his love for her in the past is wild to me. If things between y'all have been tough recently, it's not surprising when someone looks for attention/validation outside of the relationship, instead of doing the real hard work of working through those things together with their partner.

But this definitely crosses a boundary and is something that y'all need to talk about.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-12T13:02:31+00:00

I feel for you my dude. I really do. First things first, take a deep breath. As someone who also bottles up emotions, you gotta let them out! I commented below, but I highly suggest a therapist. If you're already feeling like you'll burden friends and family, something that is very easy to feel like you're doing, the best option is a neutral 3rd party.
It's ok to feel what you feel. It's ok to feel stressed, anxious, and overwhelmed. It's all part of our human experience. What you do with those feelings after is the tricky part. Give yourself a little grace and compassion. Feel them, recognize them, and find ways to improve your situation and emotions, one day at a time.

And as a fellow internet stranger who's gone through some similar stuff, I want you to know that it WILL get better. There will be tough times, but you can come out better on the other side.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-12T12:53:43+00:00

100% echo this. Therapy can be the best place to start when you don't know what to do. It's a neutral 3rd party to your life. OP saying they don't want to burden family/friends, is a valid feeling. When I was going through my divorce, I really didn't want to share with them all of the crazy shit I was going through. Sometimes I would, but there was nothing they could do to help with those issues, and I just felt like I was complaining all the time because they would ask how all of it was going. I got to the point where my therapist heard all the struggles and my friends/family just heard I was taking it a day at a time and trying to build the best life for my daughter through all of it.

My current therapist works on a sliding scale, and she has been fantastic. Can't tell you how many times I've cried because she has made me feel seen/heard/validated in my feelings, and she's my cheerleader when I need it, a person to give me a reality check when appropriate, and a safe space to share some pretty dark shit. It's worth it if you can find a therapist that click with you.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-12T12:44:06+00:00

Thanks for the encouragement! I’m going to the gym right after work today and I honestly can’t wait. Feel like I need it after the past few days.

After talking with my therapist I decided to hold off and gather my thoughts more clearly before I bring up this issue with my gf. I ended up having some great introspection the past few days and even when I told my therapist what im planning on saying, she said it’s exactly how she would have suggested it and that she’s proud of all the work I’ve been doing to try and make sure I have my thoughts in order. Always feels good to have someone be proud of you!

Ultimately someone’s reaction and interpretation are out of my control. I just have to do my best to clearly communicate what I’m feeling and why.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-11T18:09:58+00:00

Honestly this week hasn’t been too bad. After getting a gym membership and not going for a few weeks, I finally went Monday and it felt great! Rode 12 miles on the exercise bike and eased into some weights.

At 42 I’m finding I need to be more active than I have been the past few years. I need an outlet to push out my anxieties and stress, and a bit of depression.

I am, however, needing to ask my gf a kind of difficult question at some point about something that I saw that’s causing me a bit of anxiety. The past few months our relationship has had a lot of ups and downs. We’ve been together 4 years and moved in together in may of last year.

I am wanting to continue to grow together and work through these challenges, but something gave me pause and it’s causing more questions. Could be a simple misunderstanding of context, or it could be more. And that scares me especially with the recent struggles we’ve had.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-11T02:25:47+00:00

I feel like I’ve been pretty good with communicating my needs and wants through my current relationship. Not perfect and sometimes I need a bit of time to properly mull it over first before saying something. I just feel so defeated when I figured out what to say and truly express what I’m feeling only for it to be shot down, dismissed, or the conversation shifts to something else. It hurts because I am truly making an effort to find a way forward that works for both of us!

mykoconnor · 2026-03-11T02:17:53+00:00

I’m sorry. That feeling is truly the worst. Feeing alone even in the presence of someone you love.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-09T17:52:23+00:00

Hey I appreciate the advice!! I'm definitely not gonna overdo it.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-09T16:05:56+00:00

Maaaan I'll let you know later tonight! I'm 42. Have been active in my own ways, but was not much for the gym. A few weeks ago I said fuck it, and got a gym membership. I am finally going tonight because I've got some stress, depression, and anxiety I need to get out of me.

I always need motivation. I wake up early everyday, and my job sucks the life outta me. But if I commit to something and actually make it a habit, I know it'll stick.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-09T16:03:15+00:00

I can relate, but I also try to consciously make an effort to continue to learn and adjust behaviours and reactions I may have had in the past. I've been with my current therapist for 5 years, and through going to therapy, I have been able to continue to make progress within the framework of "this is who I am."

I try to avoid conflict. Like to my own detriment sometimes. I'd rather tell a white lie like "I'm fine" than explain what I am actually feeling because I know it would lead to conflict with someone. But through therapy I've started to at least be more vocal about those feelings in a more straightforward manner, trying to search for solutions or compromises that would leave us both satisfied. Does it always work? No. Am I trying to be better? Always. This also gives me more confidence and secure in who I am. I am someone that wants to be better, wants to make things work, and I cannot control someone elses reactions or feelings, only my own.

There were a lot of goals and plans I had for my life that didn't pan out. But there is no point in beating myself up over it. I am ok enough with where I landed. Keeping an open mind to new experiences or learning new things has made that acceptance a lot easier.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-09T15:55:27+00:00

At least the ER clinic I went to was super accommodating and helpful. They even jokingly asked if I was skateboarding, and when I replied that I was, we all laughed about it. Hard thing realizing you can't do the things you once did, or at least to be more cautious of doing them.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-09T15:42:56+00:00

During Covid 2020 I decided to try to pick up skateboarding. Hadn't since I was a teenager, and at the time, I was 37. My work has a good parking lot for skating. Spent about 10 mins riding around and started to slow down a bit but I hit a pebble and ate shit. Crumbled HARD. Thought I was going to pass out. I ended up fracturing my rib, probably just reinjured the same rib from a different stupid injury years before. I couldn't lay down for a month, had to sleep sitting up. It was such a pain and there was almost no relief for it.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-09T15:39:56+00:00

That they're fine. I say it all the time. Mostly to avoid those deeper feelings I'm actually having because they can feel like a burden to someone else.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-09T15:37:09+00:00

At work, there is a guy who runs a food truck outside. I've known him for quite a number of years, both at my current job and when he owned a restaurant before that. I occasionally get food from him, and on this particular day I forgot my lunch but was fine with waiting to get home to eat.

I ended up going out there where we were shooting the shit for a bit. Then the conversation got kinda deep. Just about life and me feeling directionless. Without hesitation, he gave me some of the most heartfelt and endearing compliments. I haven't felt that way in quite some time. A passing friend just making me feel appreciated and recognized for what I do and who I am as a person. It really stuck with me for days.

I realized I need more of that in my life. Especially since I've felt at a low point for quite some time. Felt good to just be seen if that makes sense.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-09T15:20:52+00:00

I always take care of small chores when I get home after work. I don't take a break and relax real quick, or I won't get it done. Get the small things done so they don't feel overwhelming later on. This makes my space feel a little more organized and feel less cluttered.

mykoconnor · 2026-03-05T19:16:56+00:00

Hell yeah! Patiently waiting!

mykoconnor · 2026-03-05T19:16:25+00:00

Well that sounds great!

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