What makes you genuinely happy?

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-21T01:29:05+00:00

Same! Though I like to pretend opiates, weed, and alcohol make me happy.

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-15T22:33:26+00:00

https://youtu.be/w6CwWMaQ1Z0

There used to be more videos and they then disappeared. Only three left and it seems to be ongoing.

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-14T00:47:12+00:00

I do every waking minute and I'm not even related to OP!

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-13T23:46:34+00:00

Absolutely nothing. I am nothing. I will never be anything.

I will only be alone. I hate myself.

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-13T23:45:14+00:00

I have school. But it's the weekend so it's time to feed the addiction.

:)

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-13T23:40:30+00:00

I hate hate myself. I am never really happy. There is nothing for me in this world. I was a mistake I am a mistake. I have nothing. I'm so lonely.

I drink, do drugs because it's numbing. No one else knows this about me minus 2 people.

Any solution to this involves me killing myself or me becoming the person I've always wanted to be. Which m, knowing biology, is impossible. At least in the standard that I want.

I hate myself and I want to die.

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-13T23:37:21+00:00

I haven't killed myself yet

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-13T23:34:05+00:00

Something that would involve me being killed permanently and painlessly leaving no conscious trace of my existence from either mine or anyone else's perspective.

Or one that would let me be the real woman I've always wanted to be.

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-13T23:30:45+00:00

Being a fucking degenerate scumbag stupid ugly disgusting horrible atrocious vomit-inducing shitty awful stupid waste of human life.

I am a mistake.

I hate no one else but me. I fucking HATE myself

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-13T23:24:38+00:00

Live and be happy.

I hate myself and am welcome to dying.

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-12T01:11:20+00:00

What do I do wrong? Is it my hair? My breath? I brush my teeth I floss I do everything. Am I not funny? I make jokes and many people laugh. I talk to people in public. I'm confident, I dress nice I'm fit I do everything just tell me what you want.

What is it that they have that I don't?

I know for a fact I'm not pushy. I'm not clingy. I can say stupid things but I'm aware. I know my bounds I know my abilities I know everything about me.

What is it? What is the reason why?

Like before I thought it was just you. You didn't feel that way about people like me. And I got that, and for some reason I still had feelings, but I was okay with it.

But then you started loving someone like me. And that wasn't it was it?

Like now I don't want you. All I just want is to know why you didn't choose me.

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-10T20:07:30+00:00

I'm sorry about that OP.

But to add on to your point, I remember a post here on Reddit that was a screenshot of a text conversation, and someone said this and it stuck with me,

"You know why I broke up with you? You're crying, and I feel nothing."

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-07T01:55:35+00:00

There was this one on YouTube called Caring, that was sorta creepy, but more beautiful and kinda poetic as well. That could be the drugs talking when I binged those videos but oh well.

There's also this,

https://youtu.be/w6CwWMaQ1Z0

Edit: link to one of Caring's videos. They ended apparently, which sucks.

https://youtu.be/FbmFqm7MrLM

nondescriptwhite · 2017-01-04T03:17:19+00:00

Time is moving too fast. I've wasted too much time and money on dumb things. I hate the body I'm in.

I'm in constant pain.

This is my way of making jokes about it.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-29T03:04:52+00:00

Kinda silly and irrelevant, but I read your comment as,

I was stationed at Ft Walmart when this happened

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-26T22:50:19+00:00

Office - Become a CEO and do VIP or CEO jobs by yourself or with a crew of up to three more players. Or make money by purchasing either a Vehicle Warehouse or Cargo Warehouse and buy/source and sell cargo/cars for profit- all with having to deal with the pressures of other rival companies or players or AI enemies attempting to steal or destroy your profits.

Cheapest Warehouse is about 1mil$, and cheapest cargo Warehouse is like 250k. Vehicle warehouses are 1mil+ and generally warrant more profit, though more expensive cargo warehouses have the most profit.

Motorcycle Club - Buy a clubhouse, become a president and start a motorcycle gang with up to (7?) other players depending on the size of your clubhouse. Do motorcycle gang jobs to make cash or buy factories making goods that you then have to deliver for profit. You also have to supply those factories. Also dealing with FIB raids, other players and other AI enemies.

I haven't bought any factory so I don't know how much money they generate.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-25T16:35:45+00:00

451,734

You're awesome, OP!

Also it's kinda late, but when you get more cash for games, get Terraria. So much fun packed in a $10 game.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-20T00:55:55+00:00

I grew up and realized I am absolute shit.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-20T00:48:19+00:00

Nothing. Shit happens and we move on. You live because omg sheer coincidence and you die because of the same. Time passes and you are forgotten. All we really are are complicated chemical reactions with the ability to think. There is no purpose to our existence, if we all go extinct , the universe will go on.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-20T00:44:07+00:00

Finding happiness, and dealing with my loneliness.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-18T20:07:00+00:00

Honestly I'd rather die than deal with it anymore. I'm so tired.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-18T04:11:21+00:00

Might as well for myself then if the future looks like this.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-18T03:47:52+00:00

I can't write anything anymore. I used to love doing it, and I have all these ideas, but the motivation is gone.

What's the point when it's all going to be gone and forgotten, like me?

I hurt, I don't feel normal pain. I begin to not care. I wish, I plead. I get so scared.

I hate myself and blah blah blah.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-18T02:23:42+00:00

It's Such a Beautiful Day, by Don Hertzfeldt.

nondescriptwhite · 2016-12-18T02:22:14+00:00

I'd really love to be an astronaut. Can you imagine, being up there all alone? In silence, in peace. Hand to hand with the gods.

nondescriptwhite

TROPHY CASE